Damn good for you man, honestly hearing about things like really inspire me to get off my ass and do something.
Splitters
Christopher Murphy
Charles Ramirez
mao was the leader that was needed to defeat the nationalists. He was also likely traumatized by seeing constant death during long march, literally having all his friends die around him.
he was often retarded but his mentality of i don't care how many die probably was due to trauma
anyways the really funny bit was when peng dehuai after visiting rural china and seeing people literally eating each other tried to bring it up in a nice way to mao during the lushan conference and mao threw a babby temper tantrum. at that point you have to blame everyone around mao including zhou enlai for letting him get away with that behavior
Alexander Campbell
Also if you're up for some reading, the Black Panthers had a serve the people program which sounds vaguely similar to what your describing.
This articles looking for lessons from their experience. Always food to know your history.
Henry Ward
Mao seemed like an excellent revolutionary, but was terrible at managing state affairs and had zero capacit to take criticism (as you describe). The cult of personality also just exacerbated the worst side of his personality.
Connor White
yes exactly. i get the leftists criticism about mao but few realize he was exactly the person needed to bring about the success of the communist revolution in china.
Jordan White
this is the problem with forming revolutionary groups and not joining parties.
if you are were actually part of a political group that was mass organizing you wouldn't be pissing people off.
join DSA or SA and do community outreach. revolutionary groups have a totally mental approach to everyday politics.
Brayden Gray
You will eventually be infiltrated by secret societies that have done this much more longer than you've been alive. LARPers intensify their extremism precisely because it allows them to go through the chairs (into leadership positions) much more quickly. Look at al-Qaeda.
There's no turning most people towards communism because it has no tying binds beyond a shared dissatisfaction. Calling names like "bourgy" is illustrative of this.
The ONLY way you will convert people is to stop flapping your gums and build a system that functions NOw not 50 years from now.