Kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself

I do this too. I thought I was the only one.

So this is what it feels like when doves cry.

True, I need to think of even more violent thoughts to calm me down. I go through whole situations of me doing a shooting or torturing people in my head. Very rarely do I go through with it though.

thought deflection is a common and perfectly normal response to painful thoughts
there's plenty of research on the subject, but 8ch is nowhere for a serious discussion. don't worry: most of us have horrible thoughts about ourselves. the trick is to get a sense of proportion before you need to hurt someone.

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When thinking about past events, my head often has a short, involuntary convulsion and I can think of nothing from then on but killing myself.

I do the same but then I just want to kill myself even harder so it's not calming at all

Has anyone ever did something subjectively bad and felt utterly riddled with guilt? It happened to me in November, i've never been this panicked in my entire life, and even now I still get a little scared and guilty thinking about it

I committed many crimes, hurt a lot of people emotionally including my parents. It pains me every single day to think about it.

I stole some sensitive images and hidden them in an archive with a password. I keep forgetting about it, but whenever i need a game i stored on my external hard drive, i see the archive there and for a split second i remember what happened and i feel guilty and like shit again.
And then i forget again. And the cycle repeats itself.

Why don't you just delete them? Or are they just too good