This is something that I don't think any of you know (or perhaps some of you forgot because I haven't mentioned it in a long time), but I used to stalk my cousin (female), and still kind of do, if you consider following someone on Snap to be stalking.
She's really beautiful and pure, her father, lead a stable and healthy family life that I envy to this day, and she's very conservative, the kind Holla Forums would wife (but without the Holla Forums mentality, of course).
I started stalking him because I wanted someone to practice stalking in general and candid videos specifically on so that when I see my cousin again I can record her without anyone suspecting anything. (among other reasons)
I had no pictures of her, and I was desperate for anything that I followed an unknown actress' Instagram because she looks like my counsin.
I haven't seen her in two years, and she uploaded some Snaps today.
I don't feel as attracted to her anymore. I just want him. He's on my mind, all day, everyday.
She's probably the most perfect girl I've ever seen, but I don't feel like I want her the way I did before. I want him, with all his imperfections, with all of his overly hairy and cute body, with the way he laughs like a qt, the way he inches towards me when walking with me, with the way he can't roll R's the same way I was when I was a kid, with his dark and hairy patch on his arm, and even with the way he stinks and smells like shit in the morning. I miss that smell.
I wasn't really living until he showed me how to live, and I never really knew what I wanted in life until I knew him for the person that he is.