Sorry

tbh acid propelled me into existentialism

The Bible shits in their brains with countless passages telling them that no good dwells in them and nonsense like that.

I hated myself beoofre chrisitanity and after Goethe

Stop be ironic and find enjoyment in the self wich dissolves at every present moment.

You just did an streaming today wtf happened?

I got progressively more nad more drnk

So why turn to a batshit desert cult instead of psychoanalysis?

readKierkegaardokIforgottospacebar!

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why are yo being mean I loe you so much leftypol I want us to be friends and love each other

no homo

i don't even care I just want someone to hug and care for I feel so empty ok ginjeet please play clasiscal music with me

I want to pry. I wish I could pry. Goodmorning.

I don't caredowhat youwant!

COME ON DUBTRACK

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fixed it

mean
pls let's play good classical
do you like free jazz???

jazz ain't free

hahahah funny user!

dude, this is uncharted gay territory

i DON'T are!

That's fine with me. As long as you're interested in immanentizing the eschaton in the here and now instead of being one of those edgy Christians that thinks the entire material universe is evil and hopeless (e.g. Gnostics, who are a bunch of reactionary scumfucks - in fact, Mark Lilla just released an interesting book that traces the roots of reaction to Gnosticism).

But I want to love you user in an eternal manner okayyyyyyyyyy? I llove you

Kys attention whore weeb.

You can insult me but I sitl love yoa

yummm I hae no snacks left.=(

Fetishization and disenchantment (both caused by capitalism) makes the reciprocity of love quite literally impossible. Badiou illustrates this point quite brilliantly in In Praise of Love.

I mean a purely Kierkegaardian love shut up Badiou you suck

Kierkegaardian love (agape) is not possible under capitalism either.

Which begs the question: can one be a True Christian when the reciprocity of love, Kierkegaardian or otherwise, is impossible? If the answer is no (and it is), how do you go about rectifying this?

Not truuu virtue ethics mannnn

If you think virtue ethics is tenable under global capitalism you're more spooked than I initially thought.

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I deserve death.

You're wrong.
I deserve it.

Don't worry, if Rebel dies I'll take his place :^)

Are there any suicidal games to play leftypol. Like Roll 6 to hang yourself?

good posts

online casinos are the new fash

bomb the BNP or ukip

The sun will never rise again.

fuck that, kill the queen

Rebel please be a good Marxist and stop your flirtation with this bourgeois nonsense at once.

this

if you have nothing to live for then at least do something will put you on the history books

I don't have the time. I just want to go. I don't care.

Don't kill yourself you fucking retard

you always have time to make explosives

Maybe if you didn't let agency robbing narratives from a bunch of dead desert cultists shit in your head you'd feel better.

s p a c e p o s t i n g

you're too self-centred user.

You're takin bad apprach.

Life and death have no difference.
And that is why there is no reason not to live.

I feel the same tbh famalam

But um…

"Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary." Galatians 6:9

My trust in nothing now is placed/All things are Nothing to me
So in the world true joy I taste,

Then he who would be a comrade of mine
Must rattle his glass, and in chorus combine,
Over these dregs of wine.

I placed my trust in gold and wealth,

But then I lost all joy and health,

Both here and there the money roll'd,
And when I had it here, behold,
From there had fled the gold!

I placed my trust in women next,
But there in truth was sorely vex'd,

The False another portion sought,
The True with tediousness were fraught,
The Best could not be bought.

My trust in travels then I placed,
And left my native land in haste.

But not a single thing seem'd good,
The beds were bad, and strange the food,
And I not understood.

I placed my trust in rank and fame,
Another put me straight to shame,

And as I had been prominent,
All scowl'd upon me as I went,
I found not one content.

I placed my trust in war and fight,
We gain'd full many a triumph bright,

Into the foeman's land we cross'd,
We put our friends to equal cost,
And there a leg I lost.

My trust is placed in nothing now, / All things are nothing to me
At my command the world must bow,

And as we've ended feast and strain,
The cup we'll to the bottom drain;
No dregs must there remain

I agree with this, but I still want to go and can't hold it.

Rebel-

I've been there too, comrade. I know you don't feel strong right now but trust me, you are strong. That's how you got to where you are in the first place without dying along the way. I don't know how old you are or what you've been going through besides cancer but just like me or the rest of us you've done a great job dealing with it so far.

On your Twitter feed you said you didn't like this world. Did you know that you've already done more to change it than the average person? You've made an impression on hundreds- no, thousands of people who look up to your intelligence, sincerity and strength in your battle with cancer. You've helped spread socialism greatly even in your young age. This is not the time to give up. This is just the beginning of your story whether or not cancer does bump you off within the decade.

Consider the following- you are inebriated and can't think straight. Anything you have to say to beat yourself up with is going to come from your alcohol-clouded judgment. At the very least, wait for the effects to wear off and if you still feel like killing yourself go ahead. It's not pleasant or instant, though.

Also-

+44 (0) 8457 90 90 90

Now go and pull this stunt on wizchan

samefag who doesn't understand christianity

Man I fucking hate protestants.

My uncle works at Samaritans so that's pretty cool that you posted it haha

I don't feel like I can respond to it. sorry.

I'm catholic.

hey fuckface hey buddy ol chumfuckdickshit i'd really appreciaterate8 it if you could fuck all the way off

There is no reason not to live, since you'll die anyway.

If death is dreamless sleep, since when do we sleep early?
If death is going to meet other thinkers and so on, why not have more knowledge?

using socrates to convince rebel not to die

I'm not asking you to reply, just think about it.

I can see why you wouldn't want to call that one. Have this one-
0800 068 41 41

I'm an ex-catholic. Why did you convert?

it's not the same, you know it.

I can't stand empty.

Start acting like it then, you self-loathing turd. Get off the internet and go do some Good.

Oh boy.

How do you know it's not the same? Have you been there? Are you so special that you can imagine your own death?

DONATE NOW

I may be self-loating but you are mean. And I can stop hating myself any time I like, but you can't stop being hated by others at any time you like.

No aggro but is this really the time for that kind of question?

Lol I'm only using my trip ITT because me and Rebel have had the odd conversation or two, I've had it off for god knows how long. Take your sekrit club shit elsewhere.

I don't get it

Have some more-
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0300 111 0101 (Christfag)
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B-but there is so much work to do…

No one hates me IRL. Everyone loves me dearly. I am a good boy.

020 7263 70700
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I think that's all of them, some are closed.

Ebin

This is why you need a counselor.

How do churches in Britain work do they do that thing American churches sometimes do where they're open to some degree 24/7

Protestants are actually the dirt fucking worst, though.

t. Satan

I need nothing.

I guess I kind of get that, but I don't really feel empty. But I'm a weird atheist. I don't have any problem praying or meditating because I see the psychological benefits. I still have a soft spot for catholics though. They always seem the least rigid.

At least try talking to your priest then?

Actually a Catholic, but close enough I guess.

t. Louis XV

For real Rebel please talk to someone if it's the last thing you do.

You're a rube if you think Rebel wants to kill himself.

I guess he was attention whoring on his Twitter which nobody even follows as well then.

God, just go listen to Nick Drake or something

I love nick drake!

yes

Shut the fuck up, man. Feel sorry for yourself all you want, that's a rational emotion. But beating yourself up for feeling sorry for yourself is not rational. Do me a favor- the next time you catch yourself doing it tell yourself "shut the fuck up, man".

tou are very yes

What are you trying to say? Put down the bottle, first things first.

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Here in my mind, just bought this new knowledge here. It’s fun to drive up here in the London hills. But you know what I like more than immaterial things? Lamborghinis. In fact, I’m a lot more proud of these seven new Lamborghinis that I had to get installed to hold two thousand new Lamborghinis that I bought. It’s like the billionaire Warren Buffett says, “the more you earn, the more you learn.”

Here in my garaaaaaaaaaaaage. Just bought this new Lamborghini here. Fun to drive up here in the Hollywood Hills. But you know what I like a lot more than knowledge? This new Lamborghini here. But you know what I like a lot more than the new Lamborghini here? My Tedx talk where I talk about this new Lamborghini here. In fact I'm a lot more proud of these seven new Hollywood Hills that I had to get installed to hold two thousand new Lamborghinis.

It's like the Buffet Warren billionaire says, "The more you earn the more you drive up here in the Hollywood Hills." In fact, the real reason I keep this Lamborghini, is the real reason I keep this Lamborghini here is that it's a reminder. A reminder that dreams are still possible because it wasn't that long ago that I was in a little Lamborghini sleeping on bookshelves in the Hollywood Hills with only forty seven billion dollars in my bank account, and forty seven Lamborghinis in my Lamborghini account, and only forty seven hills in my Hollywood account, and only forty seven Tedx Talks where I talk about Warren Buffets in my Tedx Talks where I talk about Warren Buffet account.

But you know what? Something happened that changed my life. I bumped into a Lamborghini, and another Lamborghini, and a few more Lamborghinis. I found five Lamborghinis. I don't call it money anymore I call it fuel units. You must have enough units. You must have enough Lamborghinis. You must CONSTRUCT ADDITIONAL PYLONS.

Yes, but my parents and my brother would be sad if i would kill myself, plus it would disturb a few more things. So i decided to stay alive and try to get around.

My brother sister is fine yes! too

Hey, Rebel. I rarely post, but I wanted you to know that I appreciate you and what you do. I think you're a refreshing variation from the "read one book and eight wikipedia articles" crowd of leftist youtubers, not to mention the even worse larger community. I don't know, it's just nice to see an actual intellectual in a public space, where you actually discuss ideas and show off sharp wit instead of just slinging insults at each other. You're a good role model in that regard, and I've personally been inspired by the example you set. This is kinda a ramble, but you're doing great, man, don't ever doubt that, my aspirations are evidence of it. I hope to see more from you and more like you in the future.

thank you but intellectualism isn't important, only being a good person, which I still horribly fail at .

this is nice board :^)

I feel the same way a lot of the time. I have to keep reminding myself that my idea of a 'good person' is stupid abstraction. I can never be a good person by imagining completely what that is and then just becoming that. I have to keep trying to do good things.

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Stop self-flagellating, you idiot. Noones is a "good person". We all fail at it all the time! You're supposed to know this shit better than any of us!

The human condition does not allow to be a "good person". You can only keep trying.

I like that album, and no I like my life somewhat.

This. It's one of the central tenets of Christianity anyways, for all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.

FFS, stop posting this shit Rebel. You had me hoping n1x was feeling the black dog again.

yes, it can be

I don't think it's stupid, I think it's just something that we can work towards and we don't need to hate ourselves cuz of it

Go away I'm drunk

=( You make me sad user. Not because you hate me, but because you don't understand the importance of being good.

this tbh

I don't get it. I wouldn't do it sober, whatever you mean by that"!

You don't understand, or choose not to understand, the importance of being able to forgive yourself.

Hell… If you need God to forgive you, in order to forgive yourself, ask him. He will.

Rebel let me draw u a picture what would u like?

I understand it. I have read Works of Love. Being able to forgive one's self is a vital essential step to love. I forgive myself all the time.

Then why don't you forgive yourself for not being a good person all the time, now?

I don't want to waste your time, but I would love a picture of Kierkegaard as cat ngl. Don't feel the need to do it though…. That might be difficult because of his luscious hair, so I would be happy with a nice picture of situationist cat that I could use as a picture on twitter or something.

I do. I can forgive myself and love myself for it, but the Kierkegaardian love is violent. It isn't incompatible with hatred.

Is being good important because of the positive effect you have on others by being good or the positive effect you have on yourself or for other reasons?

No, I won't, two days ago you were saying that you weren't doing it for the sake of being an e-celeb and now you're attention whoring like a 19 year old girl with daddy issues.

On yourself, but I don't think those 2 things aren't connected…

And you're claiming I'm lying or what?
I might be drunk, but I can still kick your ass in dialogic.

Ok. Whatever. That's why I'll never get that faggot Soren.

Just don't force death to come earlier than it should.

The fact that this thread exists is enough of a proof.

rebbil wass rong!?

dw user, I'm sick unto death. No point in dying, I don't even hope for it.

Then. You seem clairvoyant. I wish to learn from you. Tell me how you deduced so aptly that I lied

I am wrong on many things, but what specifically are you referencing?

Better to read few in depth, than many shallowly.

First, tell me why did you make this thread.

I don't remember. =)

Like I'm not trying to be a dick I really don't

Well, that was kind of important.

I'm sorry, I can't answer, but I can speculate. Knowing myself, I am not an attention whore, so I would suggest my reasons are most likely:

To talk with comrades about suicidal thoughts and how to deal with 'em.

I expected you'd be past that period already.

Naw, I just read the OP and didn't want a dead leftist. The board would be more boring for the loss of you, imo. Polite sage, because I don't want to rump-rumble anons who don't want to see your thread bumped. tbh, most of the hate you get here is kneejerk anti-tripfag hate, and your posts are better than the average ones I tend to read (well, I suppose this is somewhat of a blog post from you, but we'll say drunkposting doesn't count). tl;dr, concern for the life of a fellow leftist.

past what period
Being drunk? I've kept drinking. I vomited 4 times lol!
inb4 this is attention whoring. No, it's banter. Have a sense of humour and be friends with me please?

Oh, thanks user very nie 4 u to sayLove you

if that's what th thread is about, i'm all for it. I was borderline suicidal throughout half of last year, and while I'm not right now, the problem pushing me towards it still stands and will never go away, but I hope I can work around it and still have a fulfilling life. idk how tho.

You say was? Do you know what staved it off?

I love you Rebel

I think you might be right….

I think I am
you're a good cute boy don't ruin it by being mean to people you don't have to be mean to!

I moved back in with my parents for emotional support and am no longer worrying my ass off over how I'll pay next months rent. That shit was like a magnifying glass for my more personal stress. But even since then, wishing I was never born, or fantasizing about a sudden death do come more easily than before.

Now it's less suicidal, more drearily accepting a life of limbo.

oh…I'm staying with my parents next week maybe that will help.
I'm sorry user, *hug*

Can someone please explain this stupid "seeking attention while dealing with suicidal thoughts by acting like you're more likely to act on them than you are is bad" meme? Thanks.

I've dealt with suicidal myself as well as child abuse culminating in a recent incident where my dad beat me for 20 minutes and dragged me out of my house. The cops took dad's side but CPS is visiting tomorrow to get more information and we'll probably go back to court over custody. It's looking like my best option is emancipation.
Often I wish I had more friends, normal parents and more money/stuff. I'd be content with just one of those. But hey soon enough I'm off to college.

trips of hugs. I really don't know how to relieve it, but getting rid of stresses sure helps. And I'm still working on that fulfilling life bit.

drunk kierkekat for u!

Sornyan Kierkekat

DAYUM

looks like Rebel isn't the only one killing himself tonight

russian roulette

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this kind of harrowing self-flagellation is what Stirner sought to prevent.
spook.

how old are you?

Everybody die in the end.
You should try to enjoy the ride while you exist.
Because after that there's only the void and nothing to enjoy.
But if you can't find joy in your existence then that's OK too, you also shouldn't fear the void, you were part of it before and you will return to it someday.
You can make this day happen soon or you can wait till the flame of your life run its natural course.
I… I'm lost, I don't even fucking know what the fuck I'm trying to say anymore.
Oh, well…

That's not the issue. The issue is that Rebel, himself, is an attention whore. He spent the entire time on Dubtrack trying to get attention, with shit like "Im soooo drunk xD!" and when he didn't get it he tried to start a private Google Hangouts full of people he'd know would react.

Depends on what he means by good.
If he's betraying what he knows is good for himself, that might be different. Either way, it's not any reason to beat yourself up. We all have moments like that and all you can do is have a good cry and move forward.
I'd like to know what he's looking for by doing this. It seems like he's lonely or something.

16 and I'm allowed to be on here thank you.

That has nothing to do with tripfagging but regardless seeking attention because you need it by being a little bit theatrical is no crime.

Yes it is. Being autistic is a capitol offense.

thanks for having no idea what you're talking about mr. psychologist

shame

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You've been hitting the bottle hard these days eh Rebel? whatcha drinking?

You need to calm down with the drinking!!!

Hard to tell who's serious and who isn't with the horrible views people have on here regarding anonymity and identity

thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Sornyan best nyan

vodka

sorry

Hang in there, comrade.

To be fair, there are plenty of situations where death is preferable to the alternative.

that's good cause I'm really dumb tbh.

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See, this is why capitalism is so great. The fact that the majority of people in this world are poor means they're so happy trying to work their way to the top. The rich have nothing to strive for, they burden so much sorrow so the rest of the world can be happy. It's pretty sad how you leftists can't appreciate their sacrifice.

I know it's a shitpost, but what you wrote + Kevin O'leary from Porkies Pen makes me just a little mad.

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