Excuse this for being a blogpost, I have no idea where else to seek advice (all the people I know are liberals including my family), I'll keep it short. So basically I've been playing video games almost non stop since I was 5 years old. 17 years later I'm 23 with no skills, talents, complete fuck all. I started looking at Holla Forums around 4 years ago and everything started to become increasingly depressing. My video game addiction got a lot worse when I went down the rabbit hole because I wanted to escape the terrible reality of what I was reading. Then I become nihilistic about everything. I tried fixing this by joining the military. I was a POG and that's probably why it didn't help me.
Right now I have no clue what to do, I'm getting out of the military in a couple of months with a job that I don't want to do in the civilian sector. I believe in National Socialism whole-heartily, but this doesn't really lead anywhere in terms of making a living. I've stared at a computer screen for pretty much my entire life. I have no social life anymore because I can't stand normies. I don't view them as human anymore, including my own family. Before I came here I used to have friends and more motivation and ambition. I feel so incredibly defeatist I wish most days I wouldn't wake up.
Has anyone else been in the same situation of despair and hopelessness and managed to see the light at the end of the tunnel?