Depression Thread

start working out. get on nofap. get in the chad mentality for a few months and see how thins go from there. remember, nigger, you have control over 100% of your life. you're old now, this is the only warning you get it. heed it wisely.

i feel warm inside

This

Shit advice

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I guess I've leveled up my depression to the point where it doesn't bother me anymore.

That's blatantly and obviously false unless you're omnipotent/omniscient and all-powerful.

Oh well, seeing how nobody gave a shit about my thread.

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yeah i know it's wrong, but you're gonna need that mentality if you want to pull out of hikki life.

No

you could start keeping more contact with your relatives and friends. they would probably like it

social skills can be learned. go out and practice

you will be accepted by age peers when you accept yourself first

nobody is going to save you if you keep that up

Yes

Go back to Cuckchan normalfags

I am not in a world I would like to be in, and I am not rich, so I have to work

Also my grandma called and said my crazy mother's bf has kicked her and my siblings out and canceled their phones so i shouldn't expect a call from them even though they weren't going to call to begin with but now i'm just thinking about how my little brother and sister are going to have to start again at a new school. I'm sure by little brother is going to be way more fucked up than me, he's getting it so much worse than i did. But he's probably going to turn to drugs rather than anime and imageboards like i did. Dumb bitch of a mom who moved in with this insecure cuck who's threatened by the fact that my sister and i are taller than him.

Please fucking intervene user - if ONE person around him does something like smoke meth, he will get fucking destroyed for the rest of his life. If you don't want to bury him when he's in his 20s, you need to sack up where you can for him.

You also have the finns to celebrate - mammi, sauna, etc.

My other brother already went down that path and is currently on probation for assaulting a police officer and has a mongrel baby in a cucked relationship with a mongrel girl. So i hope he will see that and understand that it's terrible. I do plan to try to get an apartment asap so he can come live with me and have a stable household with a semi-masculine figure. But that's likely a long way off considering i'm in debt and am starting my first job tomorrow

I wish I could fucking help, man. If you were in socal I could at least take you for dinner and a drink. I know it's probably impossible at this point, but I still wish for you to have a happy birthday.

i appreciate that, user

I know I'm gonna come across as a worthlessly preachy piece of shit for saying it, but I was a part of Ala-Teen which really turned my life around. Ala-Teen is like Al-user, which is for the family members and friends of people whose lives have been impacted by drugs and alcohol. I know it probably doesn't seem like a lot, but your little brother is also not getting those happy birthdays, and is also not getting the stability that he would like, and the worst thing in the world, and what I've seen make a lot of people turn to things like drugs and alcohol, is a feeling of abandonment and lonliness. Sometimes there are things you want to express that you can't safely or comfortably express to a family member, no matter how close you are, so it's basically a race to whose shoulder he leans on first - the people who are going to say "fuk it dawg, blaze up" or the people who can legitimately say to him, "My mom does almost the exact same thing. It sucks, huh?" My life was going to be shit if I didn't get forced into that program, I'm serious. It's free, it's anonymous (just like here), and though some religious folk like to push it as if it were a cult, it really isn't - no credit card numbers, no ID checks, nothing.

I know it's rude to suggest something like that, but it's all I can do through a keyboard. Just want to throw it out there - if he's shut everyone in his family out, there are places he can go and vent to strangers, just like we do here, but IRL.

>No qt loli gf to headpat and wife
If I just work out and be myself I'll suddenly be free of all of this though, so it's whatever.

Trust me all that does is make you resent the world even more because you let people see you while also putting in all this work and getting fucking nothing in return. If there's anything we can learn from Elliot it's that it doesn't matter what your body looks like or how honest you are, you can't fix being an aspie creep.

The best part is actually that I already work out and already am myself in a really big and unapologetic way. I'm not even an aspie creep, I'm a tall handsome white man of peace and learning. Elliot's best lesson for us is still don't racemix, by the way.

I am also tall, white, and fairly good looking. But i am an aspie creep like Elliot. I went to get groceries today in my leather jacket and had 2 women check me out, mostly because i don't even acknowledge their existence. The second i started to be an asshole in public like that females my age started to look at me. Even if i wanted to reciprocate the second i start talking they would realize i'm an aspie creep who doesn't know who to speak to another human naturally so it doesn't matter.

Desvenlafaxine is what I am on right now. Well rum too. I gotta say its pretty good. Makes drugs like 5x more potent. I haven't thought about killing myself. I actually have done work recently. This may be seen as a downside but my sex drive is down. I personally see it as a benefit cause I was a horny mofo and now I can concentrate on important stuff. I also got some anxiety shit called busiprone thats like shitty xanax but i can definitely feel it when I take it. I legit hallucinate from weed. Its pretty great. Only down side is the desvenlafaxine upset my stomach. I don't know if its related but my sleep schedule has been realllly fucky. Also my dreams are INTENSE and super detailed and long.

Desvenlafaxine is what I aam on right now. Well rum too. I gotta say its pretty good. Makes drugs like 5x more potent. I haven't thought about killing myself. I actually have done work recently. This may be seen as a downside but my sex drive is down. I personally see it as a benefit cause I was a horny mofo and now I can concentrate on important stuff. I also got some anxiety shit called busiprone thats like shitty xanax but i can definitely feel it when I take it. I legit hallucinate from weed. Its pretty great. Only down side is the desvenlafaxine upset my stomach. I don't know if its related but my sleep schedule has been realllly fucky. Also my dreams are INTENSE and super detailed and long.

The prospect of death makes me the most depressed. It's something that's completely unavoidable and inevitable, and it makes it seem as if things are all meaningless. If the atheists are right about our end, then dying off will be no more different than not being born, because if there is nothing after you die, then it will be as you never existed in the first place. I'd like to think that there is some sort of karma or justice for people who lived shitty lives, but I know that reality is harsh and unforgiving. It seems as if our only purpose is to be born, suffer, and then slowly decline until we no longer exist again.

I'm like you guys, only I'm a 5'10" manlet.

Have you tried looking into foreskin restoration, user? I've done it and I couldn't be any happier that I did it. I don't have a sex life, but it makes your dick feel way better when you do it.

I am also 5'10" but that isn't manlet, user. Standing in line today at the store there was like a 40yo jew who was like 5'4" buying the exclusive legos or something gay like that. It's a good height.

user, I'm going to be honest with you. I realize you didn't choose to be a pedo, but it's not something you were born with. It is no coincidence that so many pedos are antisocial NEETs. When you watch tons and tons of porn, as you undoubtedly do with the lifestyle you've said you live, you get desensitized to everything normal. Then you seek out anal, and then that becomes normal. Then you seek out trannies, and then that becomes normal. Then you seek out scat or something similar, and then that, too, becomes not enough for you to get off on. Then you finally want kids. It's not because you were born with pedophilic attraction. It's because you are so desensitized to porn and fapping that the only thing that can get you hard is the danger of fapping to the only thing that's illegal.

Stop watching porn. I know that sounds impossible, but it isn't. I'm not going to tell you to change anything else at all. Just stop watching porn. If you need to fap, use your imagination. It'll be a tremendous task at first, but you'll get used to it. You don't realize how much porn, and also fullchan, has shaped your mind. You also don't realize how much it's contributing to your current sad state.

It's normal to hate pedophilia, because pedophilia is disgusting. It doesn't matter that you haven't acted on it. Wanting to fuck kids is not normal. Once again, stop with the fucking porn. If you refuse to do that, you'll never get out of the hole you've dug for yourself. Good luck.

I live in burgerland, so I guess 5'10" is real tall by American standards. Plus we're both much taller than 90% of 3dpd, so it's not like it matters anyway.

It's probably average for white guys

I've been trying a manual method to restore, yeah. I'm also kind of keeping tabs on Foregen and regenerative medicine in general. I think I've seen progress doing it, but it's a really slow road and I'm constantly made to feel like absolute shit doing it because I know the ease at which the whole damn thing could have been avoided, and the unnatural look of a circumcised penis makes me fucking sick with rage. Abrahamists are the scourge of the Earth with their inexorable need to punish themselves by punishing everyone else, it's a pity that their heeb God doesn't exist to have them as its willing slaves for eternity as it's no less than they deserve.

The reason a lot of pedophiles are antisocial definitely has nothing to do with the desire of antis to hound them to the ends of the Earth for not being exactly like them in their sexual preference nor the fact they are prevented from expressing their sexuality entirely. The sex drive is significantly stronger than normalfags give it credit for, all repressing it does is destroy someone from the inside out. People that started vanilla and ended up jerking off to CP are not pedophiles, they're essentially fetishists that have fetishized something being taboo. A pedophile is someone inherently attracted to children, it does not require any level of investment in other pornography to achieve nor does it even follow that it is arousing because it's "illegal" pornography when there are pedophiles who satisfy themselves with legal outlets (assuming you aren't in a cucked shithole) like 2D loli.
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That's a good meme, manlet.

Well you are not born with it obviously but your attraction to whatever is something that is based on early life experiences that helped shape who you are as a person i'm a pedo i'm not a fetishest.

>Fell for the medicinal jew (((antidepressant medication))) which only made shit worse.
>Rent around here is almost 1300/mo and I hear my cousin bitching in Oklahoma how he and his wife have a hard time making ends meet with a house payment of $475/mo.

I feel like I must have pissed off some god a while ago as it's always one step forward, two steps back.

I find it easier to use a device, since all I have to do is wear it and allow it to stretch for several hours. Foreskin restoration takes a long ass time, but I certainly can see permanent and lasting results. What keeps me going is reminding myself of the benefits of getting it back and undoing what the zionist fuckers did to me when I was tiny and defenseless.

It's quite fucked up how we have way less protection from the law simply because we have a dick, but I think that we can make a strong point by getting what was taken from us back. I feel extremely pissed off when our condition gets rubbed in our faces, too. It's not like we wanted or deserved this.

Eh, whatever helps me cope with my lack of stature.

nice

Fuck you you're disgusting get off my board normalfag go back to 4chan.

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I gotta say I'm purely fucking around with the manlet quip, the best person I've ever met is a 5'6" turbomanlet who wears it with pride. How do you even come into such a device? I've seen some talk of them but it kind of looked like shilling due to the community in question so I've mostly done the manual.
The absolute worst part of the Jewry of it all isn't even that it's Jews and Judaism etc. exclusively behind it, it's Jewish desert-nigger tradition that's been sold to unwitting but well intended Christcucks and members of Burgeristani Christcuckian 'culture' that doubles the perversion of it by having people with good intentions and hearts mutilate their own children for depraved baby-abusing kikes and even defend the practice without further involvement on the part of the Jew.
Imagine actually being that retarded.

I think that the entire manlet thing is meme. Usually, if you aren't ridiculously dwarfish, then wymen won't usually give a shit. It's always the fugliest chicks who have a ridiculously unattainable list of things a man has to meet, so it's not that big of an issue.

That's definitely not the only thing that these power-hungry assholes sold to Christcucks. Gynocentrism, consumerism, and all other sorts of deviancies and degeneracies have also been adopted by western culture, and the Christcucks don't even realize it. This is why western society is collapsing before our eyes.

Sounds all too familiar to me. When my parents had me circumcised, they did it because they wanted the best for my sex life.

This. The foreskin is known to have a natural immunological function built in, so it would make sense that the STD rates would be lower. By lopping it off, you're making it way harder for it to fight against infections. Fucking zionist kikes.

I think that the reason parents do this stuff is not because they are intellectually lacking, but because they have been heavily brainwashed. They get told a load of bullshit about the supposed benefits, just so that the kike doctors can get $$$ for turning our foreskins into a face cream for old hags to slather on.
It's usually the smartest people who end up getting manipulated without realizing it.

I didn't really know about the immunological functions you mention, but even if it were to actually combat STDs in those who just don't clean under the foreskin for god know's why in a world with readily available means of cleanliness it's like hacking off your fucking arm to avoid hypothetical wrist problems.

Here's some interesting sources that explain why European countries have lower STD rates.
birthtakesavillage.com/function-of-foreskin/
foreskin.org/immuno.htm
nature.com/articles/mi201156

Kikes will go to any extent to excuse this sick and perverse practice for their $$$. An uprising against these subhumans can't come soon enough.

My reasons:

pretty sure im gonna kill myself soon
oh well, some people arne't meant to be

I'm not depressed, not sure I ever was but definitely not now
got my shit good and sorted and now I'm on track
I encourage everyone to get night audit jobs, most of them let you do whatever you want so long as you get your work done, and I get to shitpost 4-6 hours out of my 8 hour shift usually

sounds like a good time to sack up and get some of that market share and hoard it from the soybois

Trades seem to make more these days

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>mfw he's a 6'2 (((alphamale))) football player, and peculiarly plays Minecraft
part 1 fin

Cheer up, OP.
Look, if Dysnomia can waddle through his pathetic excuse for a life without killing himself, you certainly can get through your issues as well.

2/3
part 2 fin

so the mods are that bad…lusting over a cumdumpster.

3/3
part 3 fin

Here's the paragraph I used to block her, it's a bit lengthy and there's a lot of superfluous bullshit in there but I think it serves the purpose pretty well:
I don't think we should talk anymore, because you don't value my advice and you've barely even attempted to change yourself. You've actually gotten worse probably. I've been thinking about what you said last night:
"why do you talk to me you don't even like me"
You're right, unfortunately, I don't like you anymore. Definitely not as much as I did at the end of October and first half of November. You're worse than when you were cutting in terms of being interesting. You're simply not interesting to talk to and definitely not entertaining. You spend your time smoking weed and vaping and that's pretty much the extent of your daily experience. I've tried plenty to urge you in a better direction but you've refused all my advice. You're no longer entertaining because you're predictable. Obviously you don't value my time and attempt to help you fix yourself, so it'll likely be preferable to you to waste your time with a retard instead. You need a friend who's equally worthless and doesn't attempt to help you at all. You're not worth my time or anyone else's so long as they attempt to help you fix yourself. You're a disappointment and you probably know this. Probably you've grown comfortable with having me to talk to. But not anymore, I'm not going to talk to you anymore. This is probably excessive for a post which is essentially stating, "fuck off I'm done," but perhaps you'll realize how pathetic you've been when nobody is trying to contain you. Maybe you just act like a retard for attention because you're a lonely fuck. I would be happy to give you attention if you actually tried to change yourself, but you haven't and it's too late to compromise. I've been far too lenient with you. Bye now kid

this

and this

There is no hope for people like me. You get rich and only women seeking your wealth want you. So the more you have the harder it will be to find a "good one". I'm going to start traveling the world but not for women because i know most are the same even around the world. I'm just going to travel to dink… I've always wanted a short life but my grandparents live till 90's… So my genetics are sound and that's a big problem for some one like me who would rather die young.

I am happy for you brudder.
Sure beeing hopeless and devoid of any greater meaning in life is hell but at least you have it comfy and you won't have existencial fears. Manage your property well and you will be good. If your life becomes unbearable you can still finnish yourself and join your waifu on the other side

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Either kys or wait it out i mean if you really wanna wait 50 years while in this shitshow called life

Thats your problem user. Forget the 3dpd and get with 2d that way you can be happy. 3dpd only care about themselves and if you ever did find the one shed still hop on chads cock

This. All these moralfags i blame dysomnia

ITT first world problems
You're not out on the streets hungry and freezing so at least appreciate the comfort you have.
Self employment is better than wagecuckery nowadays. You must've spent enough time making funny maymays to be able to offer your services as a graphic designer or video editor.

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Back to 2chan with you butthurt Japp.

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This user is right you know. I would follow his advice.
**In a much healthier society "children" or young adults would be having kids by 16. Bringing this back in a healthy way would only be possible if we remove the Jew, an act that I don't see happening in our life times but is something we have to fight for. Men realistically would obsesses over these things in smaller numbers in a healthier society given that life in general would be better We wouldn't obsesses over these things because we would be stimulated by the real world instead of a screen. Look up Rat Park friend. I think it describes a world that many of us are facing. We turn to something addictive because of our society rejecting us as we are it. We are hiding away, not out of fear but rather loneliness as some of us cannot socialize with others or we see them as degenerates, people that seem less like people and more like puppets. It's sad really.
TL;DR Race war when? :^)**
Oh and if's not clear I'm unhappy OP because society is shit and the few friends I have to cope with this are people I can't or have a hard time relating to. That or they just plain ignore me. I almost want to meet people over this forum (not Holla Forums) on one of the boards dedicated to that but I'm not sure if thats a good idea.

I've been here for years and I didn't realize you couldn't spoiler with a newline.

So the mod's ban this faggot but not this beta orbiter retard. The state of Holla Forums hot damn. Assuming this isn't just pasta let me give you the standard advice, don't go on meds if its purpose is for making you happier. It won't and I say that with good intentions in mind. Same with the therapist, all you are doing is paying a Jew to listen to you followed up by them telling you that your self destructive tendencys are normal or something retarded like that. Try making more irl friends and try working out a lot more. I know it's hard but if you can succeed it will make you happier chances are. Also lurk more or leave.

I'm a faggot because i hate the queen of Holla Forums?? nigga please.

Oh no I called you a faggot in passing. I agree with you I should have made it more clear.

yeah I'm a jap because that's what the ip indicates. faggot. you just can't handle the truth.

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yeah… I wish i was harvey weinstein, or sth, so i could marry a gorgeous 14yo sex slave, whod call me daddy…

i know what u r saying

call your exes name when sexing your gf and post results for us. Really interested how it will evolve.

I am wasting away in front of computers out of financial necessity and I want to die.

I want to die too brudder but our souls are so ugly that not even satan wants to devour them.

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What I like to do requires a degree. (Field of Chemistry)

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She has dual citizenship in USA and Japan
Father is in the navy

do people still think these websites are secret?

(heil'd)
You think my gf wants to have sex after I told her I'm in love with a girl I haven't seen or spoken to in 6 years? I haven't even felt like fapping since this all started, even though I was a chronic master baiter before.

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Me cunt mother uses me for my disability check. I give her 200 a month for bills moved out and still gave her the entire thing. I recently moved back in and shes a cunt to me. Telling me i dont do anything. Shes a lazy neet just like me. Biggest hippocrit nigger fucker tbh. Why should i clean her entire house like a slave when ive already given her tons of FREE money? Also she race mixed with a poo in the loo and that offspring mixed with a filthy nigger. That and guess what, the curry/niglet mongrel doesnt do fuck all chores. Whines like the nigger it is when told to walk the dog. I belive my mother only accepted to take her was so she could get more money from her degenerate section 8 living.
(tldr dumb cunt mother is a section 8 nigger fucker)

Damn, pic gave me the feels.
Good boy, good boy.
*digital petting*

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Finally, someone here gets it, or some of it, anyway. Good on you for speaking the truth, user.

Adding on to that nuget of gen-u-ine wisdom, I would say that I wish that the general public (and a good deal of psychiatry and clinical psychology too, unfortunately) could see past the whole "ticking time bomb" stereotype they've foisted unto us and stop the reductio ad absurdum they have about pedophilia that because one is a pedophile, we must therefore be destined to offend. Likewise, I'd really like it if people would refrain from reducing a pedophile down to nothing but their base attraction; I mean, we're fully formed, real people, too. We aren't just slobbering sex fiends looking to grope your children. We're mostly normal, relatively well adjusted people who live within the law and try not to cause trouble.

I'm depressed because…

i was generally depressed for the last couple years, and this semester (first of college) has been the worst period of my entire life.
but now that it's finished and i've kind of forced myself to pursue something not-college and the semester is over, i'm feeling genuinely happy and optimistic about the life for the first time in a long time.
i've come home, put in a couple job applications so as not to be a useless neet shithead, and i'm signed up to start some welding classes in january. i plan to work toward some certs and maybe even an advanced welding tech degree since i have all of the bullshit gen-eds out of the way.

like i said: for the first time in a long time, i feel optimistic about living.
it feels good.