Ask an older man and former "shota" anything

grew up with single mother so she used to take me to church because she's fucking religious and "god fixes everything", "pray for this", etc. the church she used to take me too had a separate study group for kids and there was like 3 guys who would take turns teaching us "the word of God". basic stuff like King Salomon, Joseph, Moses stories, or the 10 commandments, shit like that. sometimes they would take us in (the youth group) in trips to the zoo, or the beach, or some shit like that and one of the guys who would take us was the guy I am talking about. he used to always sit with me in the trips and hug me and be all touchy feely, and tell me I had pretty eyes and shit like that, but when youre 12 its not really THAT obvious in your head. especially if you have never had a girffriend before. so…. that was that.

anyways, without revealing too much, my mother worked sometimes at night and I was allowed to stay at his house. one time i was asleep and I woke up in the middle of the night (I dont know what time it was) and he had his ass on my crotch (with clothes on) and he was grabbing my ass and pulling me into his ass, like I would be fucking him or something. i let it go for a little bit because obviously I was like "wtf?" and after a while I just moved and he stopped right away and he didnt do anything anymore. then I just fell asleep after eventually.

since i am telling you everything honestly here, i aint gonna lie and pretend to be a victim here. after that i kind of knew he was perverted. not in those terms. but in my head i knew i could talk to him about anything and he wouldnt say anything because of what he did. he used to have a bunch of VHS tapes in his closet, so one time I just asked him if I could watch them and he said yes. he didnt even say it was a secret or anything. he just said yes and put one tape for me on the VHS. he had one of those BIG ASS 90s tv in his living room, so basically it was me just sitting down in front of it and watching it while he did something else or sometimes he would sit down and watch it with me.

anyways… i just wrote a bunch of shit you may have not asked for…so let me know if you want to know the rest or just get to the fucking point or something. like i said, serious questions here.

yeah obviously. also, what do you call it when you are laying down on your back and somebody has their penis inside you and they are jerking you off?

i dont know if theres a name for that.

The position is called "the breeding press"

I have this same picture of this same girl saved on another sim card of mine..
I remember seeing her picture for the first time and I was like holy fuck!! I hella wanted to suck the shit out of her titties til the milk came out!!
I was super attracted to her picture the first time I seen her, but not that much anymore like I use to be…
Good memories though…

so basically you sunday school gay babysitter felt you up. kind of a lame shota partner tbh, sounds more ill than caring.
so you are old. how old are you? (guessing 40's)
do you feel like touching shota? (guessing yes)

no. it lasted 3 years so everything happened. pretty much any gay sex you can think of, happened.

yes, 40s.

no. im actually pretty normal. so when I hear people say that, it sounds like a cliche to me. a blanket statement. a generalization.

so do we get any more story?

Fucking faggots.

well, i dont know how much you want to know and i didnt want to turn this into a blog post so i guess i'll get to the point.:

one of those times I was watching the porn tapes and he was watching it with me, i was on the floor and he was on the couch behind me and then he sat next to me on the floor. told me that if I wanted to masturbate (and I did obviously) I could do it if I wanted to. obviously i was embarrassed to do it, even though I want to because of the movie, so i just sat there and said "yeah" or some shit like that ( i dont remember exactly what I told him) and just kept watching the tv.

so…. im watching the porno on the tv and im not really paying attention to him or anyting else, and I remember like in the corner of my eyes seeing his body moving. so i turn my head right and i see that he's like jerking off on top of his clothes (like rubbing it) and obviously i can see his boner shape in his hand as he does it. but you know, being 12 and shit you just kind of look away and pretend you didnt see it. and then i remember he just said that he was going to do it (masturbate) and if I wanted to do it I could do it too. so he like stood up and took off his pants and just left his boxers on, and he had his dick coming out of the opening of in the front and he sat down and just kept jerking off right next to me with his boxers on and his dick out. i was….embarrassed obviously, but also turned on even though I dont consider myself gay, but looking back I think it was a combination of all the things going on. so anyways, after a while i kind of thought "fuck it" and i took my pants off but not my white briefs and started doing it too, but like under my underwear, and not naked. so then it was like me and him sitting down on the floor next to each other jerking it.

after that i dry came pretty much really fast, and THEN i felt kind of embarrased and just put my pants on and he kept going and came all over the floor in front of where he was sitting. and then he just got up and started cleaning that and we watched tv and went to eat after. i didnt sleep at his house that time because my mother would sometimes pick me up really late but other tnext times I did, the same thing happened again. i asked him if I could watch his movies and he said "yeah" and to just grab one, and i went to his room and grabbed one (they all pirated VHS movies that had white stickers with the name written) and then he would put it on. i think that by the 3rd or 4th time that happened i was completely over the embarrasement of being naked with him, and then around the same time that happened we just started jerking each other off. which was his idea obviously. because he said it felt better. then i dont remember exactly how long after the mutual masturbation thing happened: but one time when I was masturbating him and he was masturbating me on the couch, and he said to suck his dick and I was like "you first" and i didnt really think he would do it, but he started doing it like right away. he didnt even pause or flinch or anything.

anyways, after a little bit of him doing that (i could feel his facial hair on my crotch) i dry came while he was doing and he asked me if i came (because hothing came out) and i told him yes, and then he said it was my turn. but by then i wasnt horny anymore, so i didnt really want to suck his dick but I did it anyways and he lasted way longer than me and then he didnt even say he was cumming or anything, so I know exactly what that feels like when a guy does it to a girl.

after that time i stayed at his house it wasnt really jerking off anymore. it was just blowjobs and then one time i was staying the night we were in his room watching one of the tapes there and he said (i fucking rememeber this very clearly) "turn around" and i was laying down on my side and i turned around and he started trying to put it in. obviously my reacytion was to flinch my butt so he wouldnt go in (because it hurt the first time) and he just kept trying. then after a while of the i felt his cum like on my ass and upper thighs in the back and he told me to go clean myself and i went to the bathroom and wiped myself off. and then it just went like that for a while. trying to go in until eventually it did, and then i got used to it. it didnt hurt anymore. i dont exactly how long it took for me to get used to that but it was all in the first year, and then after that we just kept doing it.

fun fact: i think his mother knew what was going on because one time i was sleeping over she came by and he told me to go outside and they talked inside the house. but I am noy sure what they talked about. I just remember being told to go outside in the porch and then later on she came out and left. but maybe it was over some other thing and Im just assuming it was THAT.

anyways, i know…cool lblog post. sorry. just telling the details. i will keep it to questions now i guess.

im actually pretty straight now. but i get your point.

So if I cross-dress and invite little boys to fuck me in the ass, and they do, is that rape?

So you were the bottom then. Did you like it? You just said it didn't hurt.

i did the same thing under different circumstances long ago at a young age. i never told anyone about it and am still friends with the guy, but not like before. i'm completely straight, sexually active and normal compared to a lot of the fucks on here. i have no regrets of the experience even though if it were ever revealed to the public i would be treated as a victim

legally yes. its rape. ethically? probably not. but i only say that because of MY experience. everyone is different.

pretty? straight now. I sense some hesitation user.

kinsey scale tbh

yes. pretty much. i mean, there were times when he would ask me to penetrate him, but my dick wasnt big enought to achieve penetration the same way, so i couldnt really fuck him at all.

i dont want to say i liked it. but more like I got used to it. and i think it would only feel pleasurable because my dick would get messed around with while he did it. so you're in a state of arousal.

after a while it didnt. but it did in the begining.

A shame… what if I don't say yes and I just keep teasing them until they 'rape' me. Is it still statutory rape? I would be the 'victim' then right?

i say "pretty straight" because obviously your mind gets conditioned to find things pleasureable after doing them for long enough. i dont find men or boys attractive at all. i like femininity. and women are feminine.

Nope. Unless maybe you're a Muslim in Sweden or Germany

Would you let a woman peg your ass?

i think no matter what you do they are the victims. you and i may have a different interpretation of intent and consent, but that doesnt matter. you are still the aggressor.

only if she wanted to and that made her happy. i wouldnt ask her to.

Ahh so the thing about anal feeling good because of the prostate massage is wrong?

True, I used to stick a leek in my ass, but I couldn't get off just like that.. but in made the masturbation just that much better.
Was messy though so I stopped.

I'm pretty much the same way. The only I get turned on by the idea of fucking women and being fucked as a woman.

Fair enough, just hope ur virgin boi pussy didn't get too hammered. You only get 1 clackervalve.

i did that for a while after i didnt see him anymore and it stopped. i would masturbate in the shower and stick things in my anus. even though i had a girlfriend and I wasnt doing gay things anymore.

its weird how that works.>>7463515

that made me laugh. i guess i got lucky and my clakervalve still works fine. but yeah… thanks for the chuckle.

OP here. how do you handle that. i feel that if i ran into him somewhere it would very awkward to even cross paths.

its just isn't weird i dunno. we play doubles at casinos or go to a bar to catch up and talk about life, politics, ect. occasional gay joke to diffuse the awkwardness lol

how much older was he than you?

being older and straight and having a wife now etc, I find the idea of befriending the guy who used to buttfuck me kind of "weird".

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ショタ is a catch all term that refers to little boys in general. Technically, if you're born male, then you were at one point considered shouta. It's also a name. Get shit right, you nigger.

thank you for clearing that up. cheers.

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Post boipussy, assuming you are old enough now

rather not. its not pretty.

That's PRECISELY the reason why i want to see it

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