Holla Forums just tell me what to do

Trips of truth.

protip : "asexual" means they're just closet pervert, but they haven't found their fetish yet. usually they came from religious family
once you break their bullshit shell, she's a sex machine

Wow man. "Asexual" girlfriend. Just- listen to me. Pay some fine hooker, some clean girl, make it expensive. Then make sure you fuck her. Also don't fall in love, you faggot
This will change your mind and make you realize things that you can't understand reading "advice" in a board full of autists
GO!

Pfff! I wish.. She is Agnostic. I don't think she has ever been to a church in her life. I mean.. You might not be wrong on the closet pervert thing..

I asked to use her phone once to look up something.. and for a split second I saw Xhamster in her search bar.
I brought it up and she got like hella defensive.
I assured her it was alright and shit. But she got fucking pissed at me. "This is why I don't let people use my stuff." She says.
I don't know if that means I caught her red handed or if she lent her phone to someone else and they did it. Cause she wouldn't talk to me after that. But I am pretty sure it was her.

Shes not actually asexual and is just using you to get all the benefits of a boyfriend without having to fulfull any of the responsibilities as a girlfriend.
How you can't see this is beyond me.

She's not asexual.
She wants to fuck.
She just doesn't want to fuck you.

Also.. from what I have gathered from other asexual people.. they watch porn too.. They just don't want themselves to be in sexual situations.. which I still don't get. Asexual apparently means cuck.

But that's basically me. Am I an asexual now?

See, I do sort of see that being the case.. but she assures me that is not the case..
We have talked about at least kissing before.. and I told her, "Listen, tell me if we are never going to kiss and that you are not interested."

She just keeps saying she doesn't know. And I reply with, "So you are saying there is a chance?"
Then she says, "It is like a 5% chance but I am not the type of person to take risks that has that has that small a chance."
So I tell her.. if there is no chance I will drop it.. but she keeps saying I don't want to tell you that.

Basically one day I am just going to do it and deal with the consequences.

Yes I realized that sounds really bad and molest-y.. but she keeps telling me that there is a small chance and won't tell me that she isn't interested at all. I gave her several chances to tell me that she isn't interested at all. And told her that it would be alright if she doesn't.
But she still keeps telling me she doesn't want to tell me that because she is unsure.

No shit she assures you that isn't the case, what you're doing with this girl is fucking pathetic and you need to drop her ASAP not fucking move in with her.
You're being used and you don't even seem to care.

Shes so scared of saying theres no chance because she thinks that chance is like the carrot on the stick for you to keep being her boyfriend without her having to be your girlfriend and if she says theres no chance then you'll leave and find someone else like you fucking should be doing ASAP.

That is why I am asking Holla Forums what to do with my life cause this one is a sort of just dead ends.. I don't know what else to do besides this.
We have over 10 years of history together.. sue me for being blind.

You need to hold down your girlfriend and fuck her. If she really resists, that's the end of the relationship.

I have no idea what benefits she gains from being with me.. I have nothing to offer. I am broke and have no skills. She's actually helped me get my current job.. reluctantly because her mother told to.

About the only thing I can think of that she gains from being with me (as we have taken many breaks from each other over the 10 years)
is that she has dedicated companionship from me cause she knows I am never too busy for her.. like her other friends and she doesn't have to deal with her parents nagging her too much when I am around.

Does she actually consider herself as your girlfriend or is that just what you think?

Yes she does.. We have had several break ups. But one of us always breaks the silence and then we are right back together again.. Dysfunctional I know..
Either she says she misses me and wants me to come over again..
Or I start to worry about her and she gives her usual response of "I am never fine." So I come over to try and cheer her up.
Our record for longest time not talking to each other is about a year.

Just tell her if she can't fulfill her duty as a girlfriend then she can't be your girlfriend anymore and that you're going to look for someone who can actually be your girlfriend.
You can still be roommates and friends and all that shit because thats basically what you have been doing already.

If she reacts too negatively to this then its probably time to move on, its obvious that shes not asexual and just has no interest in you so unless you want to be worse than friendzoned by this bitch forever just let it go.

I like your idea.. I mean I am not going to go that far.. but the time for talk is over. Now is the time for action. If things don't go well then:

Honestly, I am sort of getting tired of her not answering the simple question.. So, I am just going to answer it for her if she really doesn't know. She always asks me what I think she thinks, anyway.

Thank you Holla Forums
I have regained some clarity on what I am doing with my life again. I'll let you all know how it goes.. Which is to say it might go horribly and I will have an interesting story to tell.

Congratulations, user. Enjoy your 2 gallons of chocolate ice cream to celebrate.

Being normalfag is boring, isn't it?

they just still unsure about doing sex. usually they dont have comfortable partner or afraid because people said first sex is always painful
IDK about other, but I had sex with 2 virgin and they all pretty cool about it. a bit numb for few mins, and all is good and no pain at all
though it might because of my small asian penis

also for OP

learn to be more romantic and be manly about leading sexual stuff
she might only wait for you to guide her, not the other way around
think of it as "tsundere"

That is not being a normalfag, nigger.
That is being an autistic Holla Forums poster.
Many of anons think they are smart and better than normies but given real life situations like this their idiocy comes out in sharp relief.

Wow. But listen here, to tell the whole story, you're using her as well. She's your comfort zone, she's that girl who will always be there.
Once again, the way to get out of your comfort zone is to take drastic measures, such as
You're the asexual one OP