Feels?

My mother sent me a letter today, its rather long winded. I'll type it out if anyone wants to read something and feel loved. All it does for me is make me angry. If nobody responds then I wont bother.

Faggot

fuck off summer fag, Holla Forums is a community

nice titties

Not after DickInsomnia ruined it.

all im looking for is a "if you type that long ass shit out, ill read it"

yeah i'll read it

earlier i typed out a huge post for /blog/ but then deleted it instead of posting

i'm not sure why i felt that was relevant

the point is, i'll read your bullshit

Just post it, nigger. You'll get at least one (You) out of me.

Pt. 1
So my dear user - sunny day!,
Should this letter be the beginning of a counciling session or just chatty? Well, we put up a hammok, finished the rental -> so now we might not always be broke?! I would like to get to see you this year, I can't express how much I ache of missing you. But I have been doing that for years now! When you first left my body would rack with sobs, and that is how I would fall asleep.

Stop giving me attention and I'll stop fucking the board up.

sup dys
I read once - well something like this, "you will not 'get over' your grief. you will heal and rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again, but you never be the same." I cant imagine the your feelings about leaving here and the years in-between. You and I are so close. We share so much, even if not in daily contact. I can feel our hearts… And then the struggle to not hate me, or abusive stepdad, or Alaska + all it encompasses, to not resent -> yet to be so angry and resentful. I look back and wonder when the different action could have been taken, at what fork in the road could we have down instead.

but that leads to even more sadness and self-doubt. So, here we are now. You are a good kind soul, and a good hardworking, kind and deliberate man -> a young man? Still, yes, still a young man…. I got to be on jury duty! I hope they pick me!! It is such an integral part of our system! I am also helping the election that is ripping our small town apart, it is good to help anyway. We have been running a 5k every week - its just a bit over 3 miles it turns out - I dont think running is my thing - like at all - but it is nice to be outside + see new stuff. And it feels good to think " I can run that far?" I am teaching a world politics class next year- super excited; but what I am really focused on is how to portray myself as an administrator. I feel small and unqualified when I am outside the school, but when I am immersed in the climate - well I just know I can do it! So how do I convince others of that? Especially because I am a girl.

I'm not going anywhere. This place will be the last to go when the upcoming current technological dystopia finally takes over the rest of the internet.

I don't hate any of you, I just like to tease you. Except feds and pedos, fuck ya'll

:( I love you. And nothing can take back all the pain and anguish of your childhood (well some parts were good!) but well, no buts. I am sorry that there is this trauma. I am even more sorry that I am part of your pain. I wish, more than you know, that I was/am a safe place for your sadness, instead of the reason for it. I would love to be a part of your life - and want stop ever- from being your mom and being open to a relationship.
I love you, Mom

There is also a shorter letter from the little sister, I never speak to any of them. Its been 8 or so years.

I assume that this letter makes you angry because she treated you like shit during your childhood?

My family is the only thing that really keeps my living.

i read it

it made me feel a little better tbh

I enjoy my job, I'm a chef at a smaller restaurant. I was homeless for a long time, not sure how I never off'd myself then. Little things, smoking, cute waitresses and good co-workers.

What happened in your childhood? please don't kill yourself dude

Im long past the suicide by cop days. Anyone want the little sisters letter?

Don't worry op, no matter what happens even if we're all faggots… we love you

Yes, type out the one by your little sister.

user,
Hi! Wow, so I guess it's been awhile. I haven't talked to you for like 5 years and that was on the phone for like 10 min. I remember you though. Alot has happened. I'm in 7th grade now. I have a lot of friends and middle is pretty great. I've told my friends about you. I told therm you are my big brother and that I have great memories of you.

Stop fucking the board up and we'll stop giving you attention

I got a chinchilla named Don and he's so cute. The dogs love him.
I'm going to get a job this summer. It's a deckhanding job everyday from 9 pm to 11 pm. I'm really excited! Its cool that I can write to you! I miss you.
Sincerely,
little sis

Also all the I's have

user, why do you not talk to your family anymore?

Alot of physical and mental abuse. I'll never forgive them. I feel bad about my sister but I know shes not being harmed the way I was though.

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I agree with you about your parents, user, but why won't you talk with your little sister?

I wont give my mother or her husband any contact. The only reason they have my address is my sweet old grandma, I love her to much to cut ties. Little sister is better off without me. I wouldn't want to change her view of her parents.

This is what a good thread looks like

I'm glad you think that way of your grandma but your little sister, man, she clearly idolizes you. She has told her friends about you.

Maybe try and find a way to talk to her without having to go through your mother.

I've thought about it, but its not something I want to do. I may show up for her graduation in a few years but I'm still unsure.

Y tho? Why can't you get in contact with her now, instead of showing up outta' nowhere after waiting a few years?

I think (with how much she says about you) that it would probably mean the world to her.
Please show up to her graduation user, it'll make you and her feel better, trust me.

I wont give that bitch even a shred of hope that I give a fuck. For all my mom knows I burn these packages whenever they're sent. I want to be picking away at the back of her mind all the time. If I talk to my young and easily manipulated sister you think she is going to keep that private? Not a chance.

Family is a precious thing user.

Can we get a gt on why you hate these people so much?

THE Holla Forums COMMUNITY

You're going to regret this later down your miserable life when you drink yourself to death from the crippling loneliness. What if your loli imouto dies before you ever get to see her again?

Do it for your little sister, if you think it'll help give your mum the cold shoulder.

Is this now an incest thread ?

Raised by narcissists?

probably should speak to your sister though

oh whoops forgot to remove the sage flag

The details of my life are quite inconsequential… very well, where do I begin? My father was a relentlessly self-improving boulangerie owner from Belgium with low grade narcolepsy and a penchant for buggery. My mother was a fifteen year old French prostitute named Chloe with webbed feet. My father would womanize, he would drink. He would make outrageous claims like he invented the question mark. Sometimes he would accuse chestnuts of being lazy. The sort of general malaise that only the genius possess and the insane lament. My childhood was typical. Summers in Rangoon, luge lessons. In the spring we'd make meat helmets. When I was insolent I was placed in a burlap bag and beaten with reeds - pretty standard really. At the age of twelve I received my first scribe. At the age of fourteen a Zoroastrian named Vilma ritualistically shaved my quizicles. There really is nothing like a shorn scrotum… it's breathtaking - I highly suggest you try it.

Nigger, stick to your principles and handle this delicate matter how you see fit. I'm coming myself from an abusive and emotionally manipulative, fucked up and degenerate family. I'm the only one who demonizes their miseeds and nobody I tell about it understands the pain I'm going through living with those assholes day by day, let alone understand me a little what lifelong pain I'm enduring.

Fuck your family, fuck your little sister too. She is now all cute and innocent now, but later on the indoctrination of your abusive parents will make her hate you the moment she has a mind of her "own". The only circumstance your relation to your sister could become good is when you take all custody and cut all ties to her/your family like you did.

Keeping contact to your grandma is bad idea, since she gave your address to your abusive parents. She can be sweet all she wants, but remember she was a cunning adult once in her life - don't let her sweetness deceive you, because she already did something that causes you to rip your wounds open whenever you receive some shitty package.

post pic.?

user, you will cause yourself more mental damage by entirely ignoring them, believe me when I say I know how you feel, I'm still going through it, but however much contempt I have for my parents we are fundamentally attached to them, intentionally breaking that tie isn't good for you at all. I'm not saying be lovey-dovey everything is alright, but at least drop them a neutral message so they know what's up.

Picture of sister?

good for you user. here's a bit of advice from my experience. don't show up in your little sister's life. you'll just trouble her and she'll hate your guts for it. maybe, and that's just a maybe, contact her when she's an adult. tell her your story and make it clear to her why you had to live separately. i understand your decision and praise you for it. live long and keep your chin up, user

Thats alot of what I've been thinking


no

Thanks bud

it is your choice to make
I came in here for the small chance that there might be some 2D porn, but after reading the letters, unless your mom is hurting for money, and it has been close to a decade, and she is still sending you shit, then I think that is enough to tell that is feels bad and is sorry, however she might be thinking of when she gets too old to work, and needs someone to take care of her, but your mother is one of the very few 3DPD you can kinda trust, after they demonstration of their maternal intentions

it is your choice to make
I came in here for the small chance that there might be some 2D porn, but after reading the letters, unless your mom is hurting for money, and it has been close to a decade, and she is still sending you shit, then I think that is enough to tell that is feels bad and is sorry, however she might be thinking of when she gets too old to work, and needs someone to take care of her, but your mother is one of the very few 3DPD you can kinda trust, after they demonstration of their maternal intentions

whoops

kill yourself and bring back flags