Holla Forums I think I lost the will to live. I am not sure what to do anymore. We fight, an struggle...

Holla Forums I think I lost the will to live. I am not sure what to do anymore. We fight, an struggle, and bleed for what we want; an yet yet we don't even get that. we settle for half or less because that is all we are going to get. There was a time time where things made sense, where there was purpose. Now things, things are different. There is less meaning and no purpose. They say that people have a reason for being, a raison d'etre if you will. I seemed to have lost mine.

When did you last do any of these things ?

Reason is a construct of a sentient mind, your own meaning is whatever you will it to be.

Your problem is doubtless that you want to have some more noble or deeper meaning to your life than your wants and desires allow, being rooted in biology and instinct as they are.

For me, meaning is simple, pursue happiness for me and people I care for.

I work 2 job while studying
Been in and out of hospital had 3 major surgeries. Had my large intestine removed, Left with a bag for 3 years.
I get little pay that I still live at home.
Have debts to pay.

Life is a struggle and not something you should be enjoying. Me, I never have fun but I would never ever kill myself. You've been put into this world and it's your task, your moral duty to stay alive. This only applies if you're White, though

It may be a moral duty, but I am not sure if I want to anymore.

Pursue happiness, I wish I knew what that meant

What do you want here?

Do you genuinely think someone could say some words on here that will reignite your fire for life?

Even if they did would you bother to tend the flame?

My guess is you're feeling a bit sorry for yourself and want people to jump in and tell you everything sucks and there's no point in trying because that validates your lack of drive, so whenever someone tells you to care about something you shut it down.

Or am I mistaken? Tell us what you want from this thread.

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Girlfriend left because I was not earning enough
and then my dog died,
Fast forward to now
Work is slow. I kept going so far because I was under the notion that if I worked hard enough. I could turn my life around, that I could turn my depression into exhaustion

Strive to make yourself happier, have long term plans for things that will improve your life (maybe get more money, get more friends, whatever), and in the short term be willing to reach out for things you want.