Evil fedora nationalist here. One of the things that has always put me off Christianity is that we are all relying on the word of the Council of Nicea.
The Council chose which writings were "true" and which weren't, and codified various doctrines of gospel. This seems arbitrary to me, and smacks of politicking, so I don't want to be a Catholic. Protestants split from Catholicism, but they are still carrying that same Nicean doctrine forwards. Even the Eastern Orthodox Church only split in the 11th Century.
It makes me think that there might be some information left out of the Bible which is a Nicean creation and not a creation of divinely inspired scribes. A big bureaucracy of priests and bishops got together and decided for us. Gets my conspiratorial side going.
On the other hand, without that, would Christianity be too similar to Judaism? Even so, it still seems arbitrary to just pick and choose like that.
Problem is, I don't want to be a fedora. I know it's wrong, and I know that religion holds society together. I just wish it didn't have to be this mess that is Christianity. I don't find Catholicism, Protestantism, Orthodoxy, or even Mormonism especially appealing.
What do I do? Should I just pretend to believe for the good of the race? But which one should I go with? Maybe Orthodoxy is the least cucked by universalism? I don't know. They still seem Jewed, because they call putting nationalism above God phyletism. (but then atheism is jewed too, so you can't win!)
I wish there was a religion that just was nationalist, and the race was imbued with a holy spirit of some kind, some kind of racial deism. That doesn't exist, and it would be hard to start. You'd just get called a pagan. I guess I've got to bite the bullet and be a Christian, but which one?
Sorry to whine, but religion serves a social role, and I want to know I'm doing the right thing for my people.