She’s 31 and I’m 18.
My sister and used I to live in different cities, but three months ago I moved to her city because of work and I’m planning on staying indefinitely since I’m single and came with everything I own (recently sold my house in my old town). At first I was looking for a place to rent but she said that she’d like it if I come and live with her until I can get a more permanent place. I thought it was a great idea, saves us both money (we share the condo fee) and we have someone to lean on for support (we both lived alone before).
This was the first time we were routinely seeing each other in nearly a decade, so we catched up and had a great time together talking about the old days and generally making our bond stronger. Things were perfectly normal for the first month, but after that some sort of sexual tension developed between us. It was nothing explicit, more like we were both testing the waters, too afraid to make a real move, not knowing that the other one was thinking the same. One night we came back from hanging out with her friends. I went to sleep but she stayed up and eventually baked something in the kitchen. Around 2AM the smell woke me up. I went to the kitchen, we talked for a while and had what she baked. At some point there was a lull and we just stared at each other. Without saying anything, I came up to her and hugged her, then she hugged me back and we started kissing and made out for like half an hour. We went to her room, kept making out and slept together (fully clothed, no sex). It was just the weirdest experience ever, like it was all a dream or we were both high or something.
Next day was pretty normal but later that night we made out again and went a little farther with the petting, and that’s basically how it’s been for the last two months.
To give you an idea of our interactions, they’re mostly normal but then one of us will randomly start a cuddle session and then we’ll makeout. We haven’t had sex yet because I think we’re both scared of what it’ll do to our relationship, at least I am, but at the same time she turns me on immensely, like I just got to have her or I’ll die. She’s pointed out several times the she wants to make love, but I always tell her that I’m not sure if I want it and the discussion ends there.
To be honest, I really, really want us to make love but there’s like something blocking me, mentally. It sounds silly or whatever but that’s how it feels, I guess I’m not completely over the taboo but she is.
Sometimes I feel stupid because I have a great chance with a woman some men would kill for, but then my mind goes “You’re siblings” and it’s a terrible idea all over again. So I really don’t know what I want, maybe just to vent and receive some feedback.
We haven’t been intimate in a couple of days, but I think we’re approaching the point of no return, which will definitely change us, and I’m scared it’ll do more harm than good, despite how pleasurable it’d certainly be.
Pic related is her.
