Hey guys

Hey guys.
Its been a long time since i've been on here but I guess this is the right time to come back.
I just got dumped by the only boyfriend I have ever had and I have never been this crushed in my entire life.
We had been trying to work on our relationship for a while but it seemed like every time we would ever actually talk about it I would just unintentionally make him mad and make the whole thing worse.
He finally broke up with me over the phone and I was so shocked and distressed I drove all the way over to his place and knocked on his door. He basically told me that our entire relationship has been toxic and "abusive" I never hit him, ever and the only reason he stayed with me was because he is emotionally dependent on me. I asked him if the whole thing was bad and he told me that there had been good moments, even good weeks, but on the whole our relationship was broken and shit.
I told him that I already had plans to buy him a ring and get married to him in just a few months and that I wanted to work through this with him and he just shut the door in my face.
Im crushed Holla Forums. This is the most invested into another human being I have ever been, I have put years of my life into this relationship and even came out to my parents for him and I have been through so much pain and he just leaves me and tells me that practically the whole thing was awful.
I have no idea where to go or what to do I have never felt this broken inside.

TL;DR sad thread

Are you m/f?

Male.

Should have probably made it clear that this is a faggot story.

I figured the whole "I came out to my parents" thing would be enough.

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OP is, as always, a faggot.

Lift weights, get a motorbike, eat right, stop watching porn, stop masturbating, smoke the occasional cigar and start dating women.

This will fix your problem. I'm 100% serious.
There's some pretty nice cigars out there, you don't have to get scummy cheap ones.

Nah man, I got me an effeminate twink untouched flower and took his butt virginity… and then apparently made him miserable for years but at the very least I know I didn't get any AIDS!

Sorry I wasn't sure.
Normally i would tell you to fuck off with your degenerate shit and all…..
But you know what i know that feel.
Being emotionally invested in a person that suddenly just drops you out of nowhere.
It is a shit feeling but it goes away.
Keep in mind that if he did not value your relationship why should you.

You just have to live with it, OP. I'm sorry for your loss.

Meet some guys on Tinder or something just to hang out with, it should be easy.

He wants his life to improve you fucking goon

Ok cool.
I'm poor and also have a car already and also am not a massive douche so no
Im on the poverty diet right now and am just eating like… canned corn, or peas or something. Does that count? But seriously I have been trying
My house doesn't actually have internet in it right now so it is much harder to watch porn but I have downloaded some and just having a sparse porn collection has made me less likely to masturbate, watching the same stuff over and over gets old.
Ill just smoke pot instead but I get your point, relax once in a while
Im bisexual so that would be pretty easy. I could possibly fug another guy but I don't think I would want to date one. Not again anyways.

this

nothing anyone says will help you. time will heal your wounds. the sooner you get yourself out there again, the sooner you will heal.

also i think its mandatory around here that i call you a faggot.

I mean I am a bisexual so I cant even use the "I don't have a choice" thing to obfuscate my degeneracy.

And I don't know man. I literally got on my knees and cried begging on his doorstep and he still rejected me. If I went though all that and he still couldn't stomach taking me back then I guess I really don't want to be with that person anyways. What pisses me off is he still says he loves me, but that he just cant stand to be with me, I don't even know what that is supposed to mean.

I have friends so that isn't the problem.

He slept in my bed every night and not having something soft and warm to cuddle against and hold your hand and tell you that you are loved when life is harder than it has ever been is what is really going to be missing out of my life.

This comes two days before I have to go to court for a bogus, potentially life destroying, felony charge that I got for supposedly lieing to a cop when I was just mistaken

I would be upset and disappointied if you didn't fine patron of the internet.

Honestly I haven't been with a woman in so long I don't even know where I would begin.

Take a spirtual journey through the wilderness. Backpack non stop for a year.

My "I have completely fucked up my life" plan is to just save up enough money to fly into Turkey and just join the PKK or the YPG and fight ISIS.

I would have to save up money though, and get back into contact with some people I used to talk to who are actually in the organization but I don't know if I even have the drive to do that anymore. I'm in school, work, and i'm not sure if I could live with the idea of having my mother cry over an empty casket because her son decided to go fight and die is some foreign war that she believes is none of our business because a pretty boy broke his heart.

well you said it yourself.
he is emotionally dependent of you.
he might not really love you the same way you love him. he might just love the security you used to give him.
it looks like he had already made up his mind.. don't be angry at him.. I bet it was really hard on him too.
I mean fuck him, sure.
It's a dick move, at least from your perspective, but you also have to try to see things the way he might see them.

that's a really retarded idea.
why would fight for such a stupid cause with the sandniggers and their piece of shit ideas?
There are other, less stupid "destructive" things you could do.
Get your shit together.
You cannot let this define the rest of your life.
You only have this life and you're gonna fuck it up for something that will stop hurting eventually.

my bad.
I thought you wanted to join isis, not fight them.
but, I still think it's a stupid idea.

Just become a drug dealer…

The only way it could've ended better is with pic related.

Was emotionally dependent on me…
I know that in the beginning he loved me because he was a broken and abused scared teenager who had never been in a relationship before. That is why he stayed with me even though I treated him like shit in the early years. But over the years the love grew into something real, I just fucked up so bad I guess all of that just wasn't enough…

I'm not angry, im angry at the both of us for letting it get this out of hand, but i'm not really angry at him, he didn't do anything wrong. I just let him down.

Because I have nothing but respect for the Kurdish people, I believe that the socialism they are trying to set up in Kurdistan wont be taken over by despots and has the chance to actually make the middle east a better place.

Also qt kurdish waifus

I am getting a history degree so best case scenario I will work for the state and make less money than a fast food manager.

Or I can become a wage slave and make slightly less money. YAY!

I agree with that, the quicker I can make this all go away the better I can deal with the real problems in my life.


Idk man, dieing as a martyr for a cause you believe in is a pretty decent death.

My life would have to take a much larger shit on itself than me getting dumped to hop on a plane and fight desert nazis.

I have an adderall prescription but I have no one to sell them too.

I cant even be a drug dealer right.


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I got in on the ground fucking floor, no AIDS for me.

You'll go back to fucking guys sooner or later faggot. I have good money on that next big load you swallow being nice and pozzed.
Maybe you'll get lucky and catch some med resistant strains.

I mean I will probably fuck more guys before my life is over but there are these really cool things called condoms you can use to prevent the transmission of STD's. Maybe you have heard of them. Also they have a pill you can take called prep that just prevents you from contracting AIDS even if you fuck raw so If I ever decided to just start fucking everything that moves then I'll just start doing that.

I hope for your sake that you realize that the womenz also have diseases and not just "le degenerate fags"

Look up some numbers you retarded faggot, they don't have them at anywhere near the rate you degenerate faggots do.
And I hope you buy those special indestructible condoms, or the unlikely event of them breaking can and will result in a painful and lonely death for you.

And condoms don't protect against herpes. You'll be a walking biohazard in no time.
Until that time, enjoy this lovely modern art. Your fellow faggots made a big contribution to it :^)

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As long as you stay away from guys over 40 and niggers then your chances of not getting any AIDS increases dramatically.

Basically don't fuck everything that walks and get to know people before you fuck them and you wont get AIDS. Unless they are just literally evil and want to give you a lethal disease and intentionally hide it. But that's why they have STD tests.

I'm not even sure what this is supposed to be referencing, if anything. I am lost. Please help.

no, you're a massive faggot instead…which is far worse.
there are perfectly fine motorbikes that look nice, if not better than many car models that most people would consider non-douchy

unless you mean "fasting", i wouldn't do this. you'll just binge eat afterwards unless you know what you're doing.
there's the apples and tuna diet if you want to shock the body a bit, but even that is pretty unhealthy.

don't make excuses for yourself to allow it.
you need to drop it completely man, downloaded porn is worse than online porn. rather than a page spread full of 10/10's, your brain is fixating on that connection with the same pornstar over and over again, so that becomes two things that it's hooked on.

go camping or something, go for a hike and eat some berries, apples and walnuts in the process. your mind will very quickly be distracted and avoiding such things will come naturally.

yeah you got it

make sure it's not another chick who claims they're bi. that shit will fuck with your mind hard. ex-church girls are nice.

Im only a half faggot. Bisexual master race. I get to fuck all the stuff.


I was mostly just laying into you on that one because its fun being mean on the internet but I have a cheap piece of shit, but incredibly reliable, car right now because that is what I can afford. I have no desire to ride a motorcycle, they are way too dangerous, I don't even know how, and I know they are cheaper than cars but I dont even have money for food right now.. which brings us to our second point…


When I say poverty diet, its not a real diet. That is the sarcastic way of saying, "I am so poor that I have been living off of canned beans and ramen for weeks and when I run out I will have literally nothing left.

you need to drop it completely man, downloaded porn is worse than online porn. rather than a page spread full of 10/10's, your brain is fixating on that connection with the same pornstar over and over again, so that becomes two things that it's hooked on.

Why are you taking jacking off so seriously? Its just an excuse to get a short chemical high from the orgasm. Its like smoking a cigarette. You sound like you have masturbation issues or guilt or something.


I work and go to school I don't really have time to go camping but there are a lot of woods in my back yard. I guess I could do a little more exploring.

Good to know


Dude its been so long and my tastes are so eclectic when it comes to romantic partners that I wouldn't even know where to begin when it comes to the rebound game. I mean I could just get someone to suck my dick or something but that really isn't enough or what I am looking for right now.

this is actually a good thing in your current situation.
something new that you can put your mind to, build confidence in, and then when you're out dating girls they'll hop on for a ride. girls like motorbikes because the vibration of the engine between their legs, and the thought of you taming it like a beast. i'm not joking.

shit man, well i guess sorting out money is your first worry then.
any trade skills or temp agencies you can go through?


Jacking off increases estrogen receptors and opioids, and as a result blocks dopamine.
Combine that with perhaps feeling depressed (especially after a break-up) and that's a quick spiral into feeling like absolute shit.

It's nothing to do with guilt or issues, but understanding that you really should be giving your brain that full satisfaction of actual sexual intercourse…not the lazy shortcut…otherwise the brain puts two and two together and realizes it can get its fix in a far shorter, effortless way. This leads to behavioral problems, an unhealthy thing if you're dating.

yeah even just exploring will do the trick. if you can get the money thing sorted and want a way to combine camping with working or studying, get a van and put a bed in it, then you can park up wherever you want when the day is over.
finish study/work and then spend the night parked up at a lake or forest. it's a great way to relax, chilling in a van bed at a lake with the boot hanging open.

I plan on at least doing the jist of what you are saying.

bump

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Please god no.

Better to love and lost than having never felt those feelings at all.

I guess having a dramatic gay love affair in my teens and early twenties is a nice little accent to the story of my life.