Then depart from us in peace, and perish like the dog you are. May history be kind enough to not recall us as brothers.
You aren't a Jew, which is probably why they hated you so much. Jewish lines are Matrilineal. Your mother was a goy, so you are too.
Also, even if you are part Jew, it doesn't matter. All of the first Christians, who were the original Antisemites, were Jews, most of them full-blooded Jews.
There's a reason the Rabbis explicitly state in the Talmud that any Jew who so much as reads the New Testament will be denied any reward in the new world that is to come. It was censorship, and like all censorship, it was borne out of fear. The Rabbis were losing Jews in droves to Christendom, and they had to stop it somehow. If they hadn't, Judaism and Jewish culture would have ended right there, and we wouldn't have many of the problems we do today.
Catholicism teaches the negative consequences of living sinfully. The Orthodoxy teaches the positive benefits of living virtuously. Read and learn both, and take them to heart. Make their understanding of the immaterial a part of yourself.
National Socialism is not an end-goal, but a transitory stage. Hence the phrase "to secure a future for our children." The children will be the ones to build the age that is to come. Our job is to secure a future for them, to give them the tools and resources they need to do so. To throw away the rotten and burn away the chaff. To give them the chance that our fathers never gave us.
Your blood matters, but not as much as you might fear. Less than two percent of all Africans are worth keeping, but of them, the traits that they share could be the seed to make their race as great and glorious as all of the "we wuz kangz" rhetoric proclaims, given time. What holds them back is not so much their blood, as we too were all there at one point, but the lack of a will to push forwards and better themselves. If they don't want to improve, they never will, and if that is the case, they will be cavemen forever.
Do you have that will? It sounds like you do.
You are awake. You are here. And you know the face of the enemy. That makes you a part of this fight. You are a real man now, awake and alive in a way that many others are not and will never be. You have the eye to see what is wrong, and the unique will to not only affect change in the world, but within yourself as well. You are one of Nature's nobility.
I would rather have ten Kubrics and Bernsteins at my side than a hundred full blooded nordic Antifa cucks. Never forget, the original Antisemitism came from inside Jewish culture as a total rejection of Jewish culture, Jewish thought, and Jewish moral and ethical values. Antisemitism is itself semitic, in a way. Don't run from it. It's not a paradox. It's the truth, and like all truths, it has a stranger face than fiction. But that face? It's yours. That's your face. Embrace it. Be the man you were born to be, not the man they wanted you to become.