Tfw its 8:40PM and i just got home from work

what state? ://3

ohio

lurk moar, faggit

I just asked a question.

you'll be fine, you definitely have it better than others.

sorry to hear that user, maybe you should try meditating idk

Hell no. That's the kind of shit that put me into this state.

if you lurked more and werent such a fucking casual you wouldnt have to ask that question Holla Forumsruh/b/ruh

still gon be shit two months tho

do you have issues with anxiety?
what's your problem?

i have general anxiety disorder as well as panic disorder. ive been clinically depressed and have been on suicide watch and had in-patient care before. shit sucks sometimes but youre acting like a lil bitch trying to throw your own private pity party tbh

Sometimes when I think too deeply about things it triggers a reaction in my thought process where I know others are listening to my thoughts and they don't like what I'm thinking. Usually someone will say something to let me know that they are listening. It's happened about 8 times now. I think it might be early onset of schizophrenia, since my father has it and it seems to run in the family.

I can share my experiences in detail if you guys want.

I don't want to go to a doctor.

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expalisn why youre such a huge faggit and you dont even seem to know it

You can't get high off of anti-depressants and schizoid medicine can you?

I'll answer your question. Yes, this is a blog post thread. You should post your day.

Today, I had an orange and an avocado for breakfast.

I mowed the lawn.

I pretended to do work.

you can get benzos for anxiety. also you can get sleeping pills for depression.

don't go to a doctor, they'll put you on meds that will make your mental state even worse.
you should try and search for some natural stuff you can do too help yourself.
I don't know much about schizophrenia so I can't help.

it would be cool if you would tell some stories.

i've never had an avocado before.
true story

Here my day:

Weird. Do you think you wouldn't like them, or is it just a "they're not around here" kind of thing.

except for anything enabled by financial independence and costs more than your allowance
kek

Okay I'll share some stories.

First Episode:

That's it for the first one. They get progressively worse.

I just never got around to trying one and when I was younger I would never eat them because of their appearance.
It's kinda hard to imagine what they'd taste like.
Apart of me thinks that they would be sour and another part thinks that they're sweet.

If I end up trying it someday I'll make a thread about it.

neetbux fam

sounds like schizophrenia but I'm no expert.
when it starts to happen have you tried convincing yourself that it's not real?

You should totally blog post about it when you do. I'll read it and comment.

You might want to try guacamole first rather than a straight avocado.

do you have autism bux or do you live off of your parents?

tbh… nobody asked.

Isn't that just the part of the avocado that you eat scooped out?
Would it even make a difference what I eat?

i did

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;-;
youre right

Yep. It never works when it's happening, but I can't get it to happen if I try.

Episode 2:

Right, it's an avocado mashed up with some tomato, onion, whatever. Salsa stuff. Eaten as a dip or spread. Some people just don't dig eating the avocado by itself right away.

has anyone ever described how you act when you start to panic?

alright, i'll try both within the next few days

I try to hide it very well in case whatever the hell is going on is actually real. I know it's not, but I can't say the same when it's actually happening.

I've been asked "are you okay" once, but that's it.

Episode 3:

The other times it's happened I just went to sleep and forgot about it.

After this time, however, I remembered it and it's been bothering me daily, so I began trying to induce it hoping I could figure out what was going on.

Both.
And i finished my job education in a law based field.

Give me a reason why i shouldn't leech like a nigger if my country invites half of turkey and syria for free gibs and transfers all the wealth to other EU countries.

I think you should leach off of you're country, as long as you spend your time being productive.
You're an educated person living for free, you should be spending your time sharpening your brain.

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High no. Addicted yes.

top10homeremedies.com/home-remedies/home-remedies-for-schizophrenia.html

healthline.com/health/schizophrenia/alternative-treatments

Try some of this stuff and do more research.
Since your schizophrenia isn't too bad, you might be able to reverse it / stop it from getting worse.

No, i identify a retarded trans nigger now.
I learn new useful traits and will work when my country needs me again.
pic related

I probably won't try any of that.

okay then
also dubs