PTSD

Help me Holla Forums I feel like ending myself.

I work for my dad, the very man who put me in a porn movie with my mother when I was a kid. He's the only one who would hire me.

He used to do more horrible things, but that doesn't matter now.

People around me bully me for my looks and my race. Recently this has gotten worse, a lot worse! I try to play it off like I don't care but they just keep on coming with their insults aaall the time. This is happening at the place I work, they have no respect for anything.

I wish I could just leave it all behind. Inside I feel like a ninja but on the outside I'm as effeminate as they come. What's the easiest most painless way to die?

Maybe you should phone a friend

Thank you for the reply. I can't tell my friends about this. Its too embarrassing.

Post movie you faggot

What did you do? Suck your friend's dick and he didn't kiss you goodnight afterwards??

It's about my childhood but that's not the only thing, it's all the bullying on top of that. I have never dared to do anything homosexual with my friends.

Movie?

Nobody cares, I should have expected this.

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Post the porn movie
also go to >>>/suicide/
also what country you in fam?

Care to tell us more about your childhood? Please give details

Also why is your dad the only one who would consider hiring you (tbh I doubt this, sounds like you're still young though) and are you gay or at least curious? If so then you can make lots of friends as a cuteboy

I don't have the movie and I wouldn't want to have it nor would I want to see it.
I don't want to reveal too much about myself atm.
Thanks, I will see if they have some good techniques in there.


My dad couldn't keep to himself and liked to play strange games while doing it.
I'm a loser I guess but at least my dad likes what I'm doing so maybe he's proud now.
You're not going to see me on cuteboy or anything like that. I just can't do that in my position.

Idk why you'd say you're a loser, I think you're kinda cute

Anyways even if you don't want to post any pics, if you're an effeminate guy then you might want to hit up the local gay scene, I guarantee you will find friends.

Also what are you doing now that your dad is so proud of? Are you still in porn but working for your dad? I think your life will be much better once you get away from him and also things will change for you guaranteed in your mid 20's. At least give happiness a try, you can always kill yourself after.

How do you know if I'm cute?
I'm straight. I like both 2D and 3D. I never did any gay stuff as an adult.
I don't do porn or anything like that, especially not cp. I'm doing good honest work on my dad's investments.

I just realized all the experts on >>>/suicide/ are dead.

>I just realized all the experts on >>>/suicide/ are dead.

And that's why you know they are experts

Depressed effeminate guys are my fetish. I want to cuddle them :^)

Think about what you're doing now for work. Why do you do it? Is it out of some strange affection for your father? If so you would have to admit that you certainly don't 'owe' him anything. Is it for the money? If so do you really need that salary to live? Might you be happier making a little less somewhere else?

I would never tell somebody not to kill themselves because I can't walk in anyone's shoes and I'm suicidal myself. However, you sound young and desperate, and there are other solutions to that situation.

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kek wtf

JIm sounds like a terrible dad.

I got news for you buddy

I'm starting to feel sorry for the poor lad.

least he got some action.

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Somebody, tell me Codemonkey is still alive.

Dude, just get another job, go to community college and learn mechanics, become an apprentice mechanic.

Or join the Police.

Or the Army.

Or the Priesthood.

You've always got options.

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Don't an hero, faggot.
Beat the high score.
Go for niggers and spics.