Unemployedfag here. Here's what happens when you stop working:
I did a lot of research.
People take smartphones/tablets/Nintendoshit to bed. Light which the brain into thinking it's daytime; hence, you don't sleep. They'd rather stay up than face the day. Nothing to look forward to. Maybe you're stuck, but make plans to get out by whatever means necessary. This turns dread into excitement.
There are 12 fast food places between me and YMCA. The more you eat shit the worse you'll feel. Starving is just as bad, tbh. Save binging for weekends. I've been obese most my life. Take care of your body, and your body will take care of you.
The idea here is using drugs to take the edge off and enter a pleasant state.
- Opiates make you feel warm.
- Booze makes you meaner/dumber.
- Cocaine/caffeine/stims makes you think good and boosts your ego.
Use any drug you please, but many of them won't let you go, so they don't make your situation better. Your brain is already washing itself in chemicals; you're already on drugs. Use drugs as TOOLS, not crutches.
One of the joys of civilization. It makes you angry at people because they're "invading your space". You can't go offroad because you're not insane, or driving a monster truck. I always had an alternate route. It might be slower, but better than waiting. No matter how civilized it is, there's always an underground.
Anything you repress causes stress. What are you repressing? Why? Are you afraid? What are you afraid of? Emotions are survival instincts. Stress is an indicator SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE DEALT WITH.
You can keep your eyes open. "Stuck" is a frame of mind. If you HATE your job, DO something, and that may mean ripping off a bandaid and facing a fear. You'll thank yourself.
Csikszentmihalyi wrote Flow in the 90s. It's a means to create fun. If a job is boring–use the pic related chart. If you're BORED, increase the challenge, if you want to relax, LOWER the challenge, if you find yourself anxious, git gud, et cetera.
You do routines all the time, you just don't notice. Smoking cannabis: 1) Acquire cannabis, 2) roll, 3) Monty Python on, 4) tendies, 5) sit on couch, 6) inhale, 7) hold it, 8) exhale. You have standards for this experience. If there were no limits, how would you schedule your day?
Humans WEAR OUT from inactivity. If you're just playing vidya, set a challenging goal, and accomplish it. This'll fix your sleep because if you'll want to sleep to take a break.
Sorting things out will give you control, and you won't worry about it…even if budgeting just proves you're fucked. You have to play the capitalism, which is won by: collect assets, strangle liabilities. Does it GIVE me money, or TAKE money away?
People are stupid sheep. If you blow their mind, they'll settle back into their comfort zone. These people are fucked, but that doesn't mean they have nothing to offer.
It isn't the mark of a shitty person to have persona. You do it because THEY'RE shitty. You have to TRICK people into acknowledging reality. If you're honest, they think you're playing some game. The easiest way to manipulate someone is mirroring their tone and body language. Only 7% of communication is words.
Your dark side is trying to tell you something. WEAPONIZE your dark side to cause justice. I'm not saying you should do anything illegal, but tit for tat doesn't hurt anyone.