For years I tried to stay strong and make the best of myself as far as I could do that in my situation, but lately I honestly feel like I'm dead already. My spirit has already passed on to the other side and now I'm a corpse walking around waiting to rot. I don't want to sound defeatist and I sure as hell don't want to blackpill anyone. I've been resisting these feelings for a long time. I want to be strong, I want to fight for the white race and I know that my suicide would be a victory for the enemy, but I fear I am far too weak to go on. I was raised in an environment of weakness, hopelessness, stupidity and degeneracy to the extremes, and this has left me with a heap of issues and defects, both mental and physical. I have been living and striving through nothing but willpower for years on an end, despite having no energy or motivation to do so, but I feel that this well has run dry. Everything, the most simple, basic things are so fucking tiring now. Life itself feels like a tremendous, futile effort. I can't find the strength to get out of bed, and when I do I can't decide what to do next, for everything seems so trivial and futile. My only refuge is sleep, and even that seems to be further and further out of reach. I know that a change might come and that as long as I am alive something could happen, something could change, but I seem to have grown to weak to do even that. Even if things were to change, the damage has been done and I feel I would be too set back by what life has inflicted upon me to be of much use to the cause. I don't know what to do. I don't want to subject myself to kike psychology. I don't want to take their pills. I don't know any way out of here. I just don't know what to do anymore. If anyone finds himself in a similar situation, or has found himself in one in the past and managed to overcome it, I want to hear what you have to say. If I take my life, then I can only hope to make an apology to the cause and to the Führer, and hope that even a soul as weakened and torn down as mine can find a place in the last battalion.
Stay the course, but find a creative hobby. If you're constantly thinking about destroying things (your enemy), there's not enough balance in your life.
Isaiah Sullivan
ITT: Babbies first existential crisis
Justin Parker
Read Junger's Storm of Steel. Read in general, actually. Get some sun, stop masturbating.
Hunter Sanders
Sort your things, gain courage somewhere, and do something for your own volk. webm related Don't blackpill us. We should all fight against this international clique. If we get depressed, we are already defeated.
Adam Thomas
Walk away from the internet. Forget politics. Listen to Billy Joel. Have a cry. Have faith. Be positive.
wake up early, keep your dwellings clean, dont smoke, dont drink, exercise and lift, eat healthy if you don't, and get out of your current routine.
Angel Jenkins
you are right not to subject yourself to kike psychology
what you can do now, while taking a break for a few weeks from the world and the internet, is to make a trip someplace you haven't been, countryside, hiking, tourism, what you want, and listen/observe the world without prejudice if you haven't lost your ability to percieve beauty, you're still alive
No Fap Lift Eat healthy If you're fat, lose weight Start learning about crypto and blockchain Travel to places where women still like men That's what i do - I feel the same way as you.
Angel Allen
You mean being a weirdo sex tourist bumming around in asia?
no thanks! Everything before that was good.
Benjamin Long
Holla Forums mods are compromised globalist shills who censor you if you get too close to the truth. if you post anything they disagree with, even if it's a commonly accepted opinion on Holla Forums, they will delete all your posts and all your threads and then ban you. question everyone until you find out who you are not allowed to question. if it's the same for (((them))) then the Holla Forums mods are (((them))). eventually you will post something or start a thread and you will be censored and banned even if you did not break a single rule on Holla Forums.
I hope the best for Holla Forums
I also know that feel OP.
Adrian Peterson
defeatist shill pieces of shit detected
they want to troll you into depression. don't listen to them. the Holla Forums mods are the same people.
Chase Edwards
just shut the fuck up and go away. Your whining is aggravating at worst, amusing at best.
Wyatt Ross
Hitler wrote in Mein Kampf: Kaliyuga must be defeated inside of you, the Golden Age will return in your soul. You clearly lack spiritual fortitude. I would recommend you to first read Nos, Book of the Resurrections and then continuing with Adolf Hitler, The Ultimate Avatar. Your journey is about to begin. Don't give up. Maybe you need a change of environment. Move to a place that is warmer. Try starting a business like an ecommerce store to get independent from the slave wage system where you trade 5 days of servitude for 2 days of "recovering". Get a garden, start grwing crops, go full permaculture. Your goal is to raise redpilled white children who will remember you as a tower of strength in time of great degeneracy and deception. Don't give the enemy any satisfaction. Live to spite them.
Connor Anderson
Try suicide
Jeremiah Perry
Clean you room NoPorn NoFap Read good books Lift heavy ass weight (compound movement are GOAT)
Never stop improving yourself, even if it is just a little bit everyday.
Brandon Walker
jesus christ man. you sound clinically depressed to me, and the only real thing which can reverse that is introspection and cultivation of willpower. I know that probably isn't what you want to hear right now or feel like that isn't easily done, and you are completely right on the latter. believe me, i know, I've been where you are right now, and there is no other way to say it other than that it sucks. from experience, here is a little advice: - don't start chugging pills - meditate or pray or whatever to have an introspective moment. this shit has helped me more than i care to admit. it's literally zero effort, and it does wonders on base-lining your mind. - willpower is everything. cliche to say, but that's because it's fucking true. realise that you are basically just a bunch of cells working together, all of them, to make the fleshy person that is you. everything inside you is subject to your will, and exerting it will cause shit to happen. if you focus on exerting your own will, you will get better willpower. healthy mind, healthy body. - find someone you can talk to. this is also important. people are made to share their woes, and simply telling someone about them can often help in processing it yourself.
shit , i wouldn't mind helping you out on that last one, if you really want to change. I'm completely serious on that, if you need someone outside of your environment to help you, we can set up an email conversation or shit like that.
Matthew Green
GTFO NOW!
Kayden Ross
He is a jew but he obviously has faith in God. He isn't a kike.
Gabriel Green
Get your testosterone tested and get on TRT. Make yourself great again.
Jacob Ortiz
Get it together son. You're in mid-stage redpill, it will get better.
If you have already resigned yourself to death, use your life to work tirelessly and create a white ethnostate or make white children so that it will have meant something.
If you still find your mind going in all sorts of directions, find your purpose and goal in life and orient all your time and actions towards it. Watch some Jordan Peterson lectures (overlook his muh evil Nazis muh smart Jews comments) to help with this.
John Gutierrez
What?
Nathaniel Green
This is the best advice here. To further, go spend some time in nature- even if it's just a walk to a local park. You'll get a new and fresh perspective. OP, the power of your mind is not a joke. Use it. Godspeed.
