I’ve also began briefly investigating Sandy Hook and Adam Lanza, and the people surrounding the event, and have been flabbergasted by some of the inconsistencies. I feel absolutely terrible raising the tragedy into question, but why is there so much hysteria surrounding the event? I looked into some of what’s happening, how much money they’ve made off of the tragedy, and saw a figure that one of the parents, who once worked for the Walton family, is being donated 0.5% of all Amazon purchases. I see Adam Lanza’s demeanor, the notion that he was talking to others about joining government programs, his forum posts, and the massive dearth of information there is on him. This dude went to college at 16 to study history. What if he believed he was saving the kids? I would add a dismissive statement here about his mental health, but I simply don’t have enough information to say anything meaningful about it. Please listen to his call into that radio station if you haven’t already.
Anyway, out of sheer boredom, I’d started to read esoteric/fringe/greenpill knowledge out of my own amusement. I read Theozoology, which made me shit myself in one way or another. I was really confused by the literature – I had no idea how to source the claims made and the amount of knowledge and work that seemed to go into this idea. Ariosophy, that is.
See, this is where I have trouble; I could be buying into the delusional, alienating ideas that a lot of other crazy people have been. See, the Jews could just be a fascinating phenomenon of religious life-protocol efficacy and nepotism, and that they are particularly intellectually gifted. However, the only Jewish friend I have has told me that his Orthodox grandparents told him that there was an Illuminati of sorts, a secret society that meets in every city. I also remember learning that he converted to Christianity and they literally called him “filthy goy” or something really emotionally traumatic to him. I see that a lot of my intellectual heroes are Jewish and begin to wonder – either the Jews are just thoughtful or that they’re malicious. I’m still not convinced of this, but I look back to my education, and specifically remember a time in middle school where we were in a simulated holocaust, where we acted like Jewish prisoners and were yelled at, ordered around and intimidated by our history teacher. I loved the guy but in retrospect this was kinda weird.
My friend, who’s a political science major, has been down the same fucking rabbit hole as me, almost separately. He has expressed his doubt of the Holocaust statistics, he is particularly vicious when it comes to his condemnation of people of certain races, but it’s funny – he was down the same path as I prior – one of secularity and empiricism. He is a highly, highly intelligent guy, if not more intelligent and cultured than I. To see him come to the conclusions I feared so much was unnerving.
I’ve read about synchronicity, magick, evocation, astral projection, global politics conspiracy theories, religion and paganism. I am seeing some of what I read reflect in reality, and I’ve had my own synchronistic moments. However, I fear that this is because the very nature of these ideas plays upon unconscious biases that manifest themselves in ways of interpreting daily phenomena. Check out the list of cognitive biases on Wikipedia if you want to explore this further.
I’ve read Christian literature on the Occult and have come to some interesting conclusions. Firstly, the New Testament states that the end times will be characterized by a rising interest in the occult. To paraphrase some literature, occultic ideas are anything that speaks positively of the human mind or psyche. They even refer to concepts such as self-awareness and self-actualization as occult ideas and this was something that was hard to grapple with. It makes me wonder if modern scientific doctrine leads us to "occult ideas". I mean, sure, anything that isn't Jeebus is the occult and Satan right? However, science fucking works and I’ve seen it work; I’ve studied it for years. It produces real, concrete things in reality – we take the metals of the earth and bend and refine them into information structures, force generators, et cetera – we can fucking fly now. It really is fucking gratifying, concrete and it’s modern alchemy if you will. It does everything that religion and the occult have tried to do for years – to further the human spirit, to control and manipulate the elements - to have power. So what gives?
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