Anecdotal Bullshit About How Gayness Manifests (My Ex-Gay Story)

I'm gonna be frank with you, I used to be a homo.
I'm not saying this to garner hate or troll or whatever, but it taught me a thing or two about the gay agenda rising, and there is a gay agenda rising, within society today.

I was in a relationship with a man for a year, and before that I was interested in guys for 3 years and I was the classical liberal faggot saying 'oh, I was born gay, I have no interest in women cause that's just where I lie on the homosexual-straight and feminine-masculine spectrum!' I was a happy idiot, I was sure of who I was and was keen on expressing myself because I don't want to be trodden down for something I was truly feeling; which is tripe by the way, I'll extrapolate.

I was at a party and I got hit on by, no joke, three girls at once. One short haired redhead, one long black haired owner of the house, and a blonde haired chubby girl with huge tits. This isn't important to you I guess, but I was feeling things and I was thinking to myself, 'well, I could just hit on them and find out who they are, I could make a life for myself and I could be happy, I do want kids one day…' and before you know it, thinking about it too hard made me straight. I broke up with my boyfriend of a year because of this line of thought and slept with the long black haired girl for months after this. I didn't even think twice about me switching like this. I just did it because it felt good.

So, obviously this was a bit weird and I stopped talking to her and just thought about it for a while. I didn't have any attraction to men anymore! I was disaffected and callous towards them like any straight dude! Then I started thinking and felt bad for my ex-boyfriend. I thought about how happy I was with him and how attracted I was to men, and that I broke up with him without caring, and I would try to be more caring, and bam; I was gay again. I slept with a few guys and got to thinking, "Is this all just because of my being curious and thinking about something that could make me happy and then becoming addicted to wanting that happiness?" I could just switch between gay and straight with a little self-programming. So I tried it again and I got an attraction towards women with watching a little porn and jacking off for 2-3 months.

I programmed myself.

I'm typing this in Holla Forums because I think gayness is just a manifestation of your own thoughts of 'hey, being fucked in the ass might make me feel good' and then your brain obsessing over it and repeating it to yourself crazily. I think fetishes are the same and manifest because of the 'good feelings' you associate with fetishes once you get them into your head as 'something that could possibly make you feel good.' Your thoughts become your reality and you start acting on your crazy impulses because there are tons of other people who let themselves be carried away by such notions. They turn their own brains into machines that get programmed to feel good whenever they think in such a fashion because they tell themselves it would be good to be gay.

tldr; gayness is just people thinking they can feel good by being gay, and then their thoughts becoming reality like meme magic

op is a faggot

Holla Forums has known this for years.
Also, OP is a faggot

I think you meant to post this on TRS

Pick one

Bitch faggot. Tell us how you were molested by your uncle and his friends too, little bitch.

Once a faggot, always a faggot. Kill yourself, it's the only cure.

Nice blog post faggot.

You're right but most people don't have to take miles of cock inside them before they figure this out. What a fucking faggot you are.

OP IS LITERALLY A FAGGOT
Holla Forumsite sage. Just wanted to say it.

I think legitimately gay people are around .1% of the population or so. There are a lot of people who want to be gay and do it to be cool. You see the same thing with transpeople. There's even a name for when it happens, transtrender.

The same is happening with gays. I've been around homos too, a lot of them act repulsed by vagina, are afraid of girls, and take huge pride in being a fag. They basically tell anyone who is afraid or grossed out by same sex intercourse they are disgusting homophobes, and then turn around and act disgusted by heterosexual intercourse. It's extremely hypocritical, and a lot of them do it. You can even see the same pattern between liberals going "YAY BLACK/ASIAN/HISPANIC PRIDE!" and then attacking people who talk about white pride. It's a very common thing with liberals, definitely gay liberals (which is 99.9% of them).

Gay community is definitely working hard to make it a club you join and to recruit people. Their entire MO is to convince anyone who has the slightest curiosity or inkling they might like someone of the same sex that they are gay and are meant to only be with people of the same sex.

Realistically I think a lot of people have same sex feelings, but they are just shrugged off and forgotten because they're not big and they go on to lead normal lives. And that's how it should be. But they are definitely trying to recruit. Notice how they are so quick to say
yet if you go to them
they go berserk and call you a homophobe and typical liberal naming tactics.

it's because you're a hedonist degenerate addicted to stimuli-induced endorphine releases.
There's probably a lot of conditioning on "wanting to please and be accepted by everybody" in there too - this is typical in america, a society based entirely on being popular rather than righteous.

On the one hand you're a victim of the psychological/sexual warfare (as many others) that the international govt wages on the people; on the other, you're a naive and gullible fucking idiot whose offspring wouldn't have been missed in the gene pool

It's good that you stopped being a fag but nobody wants to hear about it, it's disgusting.

LOL, I like that one. Trendmeisters has a new companion word, transtrenders. ROFL

Nah, you're still a faggot.

Once a sodomite always a sodomite

no fucking shit. Sage for OP is a lala fairy man.

Does someone have the WebM of Sam Hyde triggering SJWs over Homosexuality?

"Be careful what you think, because your thoughts run your life. "
Proverbs 4:23 NCV

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Can confirm, I've experimented with different porn and thinking about different things while jerking it and have 'convinced' myself that my fetishes were a part of me.
Now I'm trying to quit the fleshly Jew and think about just having a normal, healthy life.

Ultimately, my opposition to homosexuality and other such fetishes doesn't stem from the fact that they don't feel good (they do), but because such fetishes are contrary to the surviving and thriving of humans. What is individually pleasurable is destructive for society, and what is pleasurable in the moment is harmful in the long run.
Polite sage

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Don't forget porn addiction, OP. That's a thing that turns people into fags too.


You're not wrong, but at this point 99% of trannies are transtrenders and fetishists. After jewish psychology and cultural marxism gets purged, any future trannies that are born will need to be called "neurologically intersex" or something that can't be easily redefined, misunderstood, or made into a special snowflake label for teenagers. Obviously a medical thing, nothing to be proud of, the person is defective. (Ideally we won't have any more, since it's probably caused by kikes fucking with mothers' hormone levels and pushing for women to give birth later and later in life.)

t. tranny

I think the asexuality shit is the same thing, but I don't think it actually exists. Either a phobia or some kind of trauma, a hormonal disorder, attention whoring, or girls just being girls and eating up the "if you don't have intense sexual desire for people you don't even know then something must be wrong with you" jewish propaganda.

Honestly I recommend you reach out to God, and I mean REALLY PRAY to him, and START GOING TO CHURCH. Once I started making friends with some people who aren't ultra-over-sexualized and established a really good relationship with God, pornography & fetishes stopped being a real problem for me.

It seems possible in principle. If people can be chemically castrated intentionally, it can probably happen unintentionally and unknowingly. Problem is, most supposed "asexuals" don't seem to have the other symptoms you'd expect from that.

On a societal scale the CIA is currently trying to sissify white men. The porn industry is controlled by the deep state, make no mistake.

Feels bad man


Are you the one that's detransitioning? If not then do so ASAP because you have some sanity left in you.

Holla Forums is not your personal blog faggot
Report, hide, sage

Ah, I wish I had faith like that again user. I have a lot of anger at the church due to the feeling of being lied to/brainwashed into six-day creationism shit when I was younger. I have no qualms with God, and I talk to Him/It/Them sometimes, but I don't believe in the doctrines about Jesus, and dislike how Christian morals seem to encourage weakness and cuckery.

I try to go to church, but everyone is so blue-pilled it hurts to be around them.
Polite sage for blog posting

This gave me hope and despair. Thanks user.

Ignore the jews in this thread. Look to the image you posted if it's the book i'm thinking of.

Get away from degeneracy. Change your life for the permanent. What's important is that you are realising what it is and you have come to understand it. Now that you understand it, there's no excuse to going back to that old lifestyle. Change. You're a man. Go find a woman who will love and look after you. That's not a man's job. Do what needs to be done but do not hide the truth from her either.

I wish you the best and I am glad you have realised the mental illness that gets pushed in our society is merely a farce. Deprogram yourself once and for all and find purity. Break your addictions and God Bless.

Not the user you're talking to. But I hear what you are saying. Unfortunately man gives God a bad name. Call on Jesus Christ. Ignore man made doctrines or religiosity. Ignore the normies or find an online church.

I know Firefall Talk Radio had a guy on who converted. There's guys like Richard Grund or Dan Duval, etc, etc. But don't look to man or businessmen who pretend to sell a gospel of a good life because it's not biblical. All you need is you and Jesus Christ.

I agree with you on the cuckery though. Those are not christians, or perhaps christians in name only. The apostles were known as sons of thunder. They were brawlers. Jesus was a carpenter. We are strong. We are truthful, we live that life to the best of the ability. We do not see that in the buildings of brick and mortar. Remember that and understand that religion does not equal belief. Religiosity has killed the church. What we are doing now is having church. Remember that if any 2 or more are gathered in his name, one is not only having fellowship but also in agreement.

Stay strong brother. The church will hurt you and man will skew your vision of Jesus Christ. It's not about the head-knowledge, it's about the feeling you get when the Holy Spirit hits you. It's un-explainable but you will know it's inside when you do. It's the instinct, the inherint truth that all things that breathe know there's something out there. And it gets confirmed when you accept Him.

I say all of the above out of love for you and I fear that the masses do more harm to non-christian that ever before. Bible bashing and condescending mannerisms from blue pilled normies who cherry pick their sins of destruction will turn anybody into an atheist or agnostic. I'm sorry you've had to deal with all that mind control, but understand that there are very few out there that get it.

I suggest you try out the former name I mentioned above. He helped save my life.

God Bless

Sorry for samefagging. I meant that there are businessmen, and then there are true preachers. The name I mentioned first. Give it a listen. See what you think. Old school tough guy, been through a lot of shit. But Jesus Christ loves us and it's something that will change your life forever.