What do you do when you hate yourself and want to die?

what do you do when you hate yourself and want to die?

continue living

Wait for Godot.

pray to the God - you may end up meeting sooner than you think

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- ANTI-BULLSHIT ALGORITHM
>WHAT ARE WE DEALING WITH?
Please write your belief, concern, grievance succinctly. Don't worry if it's too short. The first questions tease out your conditioning, so some of them may seem redundant. Don't think too hard; just say the first thing that comes to mind, and be honest. If you don't know, just say that. Write your answers below the questions. If unrelated thoughts come to mind, write those down too, even if they seem to answer other questions. You might start ranting; that's GOOD. You can also use this for issues you're comfortable with, but want to double check.

>[belief/concern/grievance/feeling goes here]

- Is it serious?
- Who gives a shit?
- Are you gonna make it?
- What happens if you drop it?
- How does it make you feel?
- What does it cost?
- What does it give you?
- Does it put you ahead of the curve?
- What causes it?
- What's it supposed to be?
- What has it done?
- What's the opposite of it?
- Why do you believe it?
- Because of the past, you need to fix this because…
- Has this ever made sense?
- Unchanged, what happens in 10 years?
- 20?
- Who started it?
- What did it mean to them?
- What does it mean to you?
- Who's gonna clean up?
- What words and images come to mind?
- Have you been brainwashed?
- What happens if I indulge it more?
- Has your belief changed yet?

>SHIT, I GOTTA DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS
Now your grasp is a little firmer, so we'll decide if it's actionable, then we'll have a little fun. If you're good.

- What part of it, if removed, would make it unrecognizable?
- What constraints and opporunities exist?
- Can't someone else deal with it?
- Is it actionable? If not, save it–or trash it.
- How do you do it?
- Where do you go?
- What distracts you from doing it?
- How can you prepare for it?

>LET'S MAKE IT INTERESTING
You know what to do now, but if you're motivated and having fun, you'll become a better person. So let's fine-tune. We'll give you some parting gifts later.

- Can you prepare in different ways?
- Does it REQUIRE more than one action?
- Do you have to discriminate when and how you act?
- Are there multiple types of challenges?
- If you occasionally reflect, can you improve your approach?
- What does failure look like?
- How can you set yourself up for surprises?
- If you're still not motivated, reconsider it, or trash it.

>PARTING SHOT
By this point, you should either realize the issue was silly and not worth the trouble, or you're highly motivated to kick ass and take names. Maybe some combination of both, who knows. Since sudden shifts in perspective can be easy to forget, you might want to make a note to yourself about WHAT the issue is and HOW you're going to handle it. Anyway, the following bits are food for thought.

- Test by intentional failure.
- Obsessive novelty-seeking = boredom.
- Fun = you're ahead of the curve.
- Fun = exposing yourself to failure.
- Talent notwithstanding, newbies are ridiculous. Pros do stupid shit too.
- Do not override or ignore resistance.
- Learning happens in spurts.
- Never pretend you know more than you do.
- Throw randomness at analysis-resistant problems.
- Grok fundamentals to generate stupid tricks.
- Surrender to instruction, not the teacher.
- Teachers involve you.
- Teacher help retards.
- Sometimes, you have to develop a taste.
- Compete for feedback, not outcomes.

Good luck.

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