Too chickenshit to do it myself

i want to die

what's the best place to go out myself as a pedophile to ensure the job gets done quick

Just post CP on Facebook or some shit. That's not gonna get you killed though. I say point a gun at a cop, that should do the job

I don't even have any, it's been years since I did that

It's ridiculously easy to find CP dude, come on

t. Pedo

not like it used to be, the last several times I broke down and installed the tor browser I couldn't dig up shit

It's not going to be done quick if you out yourself as a pedo. People like to make pedos suffer. You're much better off pointing a gun at the cops. It can be a plastic gun. Just make sure it's black, or paint it black yourself.

I'm not going to fuck up somebody else's life just to end mine, I've hurt enough people

I already have to deal with the fact that my mother will probably kill herself if I die

u want attention

ultimately yes, but this is not a method of getting it

I don't want to make the news, I don't want to make things worse for anyone

I just want to stop hurting

Or just paint yourself black.

u need to leave, ur a manbaby with no coping skills.

leave, go to reddit

I'm suicidal, not masochistic, I'm not going to learn how to wade through that pile of shit website

Don't do it like that man. Suicide is or can be hard enough on the family. Don't go out letting them think you were a pedo.

Why not get drunk and walk into traffic?

Follow Dolly

haha

ha

they already know

I got caught when I was still a kid

got help

not an addict anymore

but it's still there, along with a bunch of other shit I can't improve about myself

I'm just a drain on everyone around me, everyone finds me disgusting even if they don't know the secret

I want it to stop

Are you talking about drugs/alcoholism or pedophilia? Still, don't let them think you 'relapsed' back into kiddie porn addiction.

pedophilia, I haven't hurt anymore kids or looked at real CP in years

and I'd leave a note explaining what's up, I wouldn't want them to think that

i need to know your first name

seems to me you'd need alot more info than that

but anyway

I can't

I want to. I'm trying to get myself to do it.

The entire reason I've come up with this crackheaded idea is that for years, I've wanted to stop this pain, but I can't overcome my fear of death.

Why do I fear death? I don't understand it myself. I hate my life. I'm constantly making things worse for people I care about, and I'm too tired and weak to do anything to better myself. I've been watching all of my potential slowly degrade into bullshit since I was in fucking elementary school. I'm in my thirties and I live in my mother's boyfriend's back room and I can't get better.

So, why am I afraid of death? Why do I lay in bed every night flip-flopping between praying for a meteor to fall on me and being absolutely terrified of the idea of never experiencing anything again.

I can't do it. I've tried to think of ways to work around that fear so many times.

It's not attention seeking. I don't talk about that struggle with people who know me, either irl or online. I don't even really discuss that particular detail with my therapist. I just… don't know how to change it.

reddit.com

I already want to die

I don't need help with that part

How new are you? I'm not even a pedo, but due to countless hours spent on imageboards, I could probably find some on the clearweb at fucking mach speed.

If you wanted to die you would just kill yourself. You don't want to die. You want to tell people you do for attention

Yeah, that's why I don't talk about it with any of the people who might actually give a shit.

Stop pretending you know shit about psychology.

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