Promise I'm not Holla Forums, this is just an honest question for the gaybros...

What kind of question is this?

Im straight mostly but I am attracted to lesbians just as much as straight women. Why? Because you are attracted to a certain sex and personality, and being gay isnt a personality.

we just can't stop winning

Bifag here, so not quite the same.
I've never really had the issue of being attracted to friends because I can separate friendship from romantic or sexual feelings. That said the mechanism of your attraction isn't aware of other people's orientation so yes you'll end up attracted to people who are incompatible. Straight dudes see this when they find out a hot girl is a lesbian. It's just more likely to happen to gay dudes because straight dudes are a lot more common than lesbians.

Shit, you're right

You probably repressed your sexuality with some woman hateric, androcentric cult of masculinity shit, also no way you actually lost all attraction towards men

Not the case with me

But don't say it like homosex is anything bad, that's unfair

Sure I can find straight guys sexually attractive, but I only develop romantic feelings if he's gay/bi. Never had a crush on a straight guy.

maybe there really is something to it…

I'm not fascist and the others are a fucking rose and koba

hmm…

but user antifa are the real fascists

i turned a straight guy gay with boypussy and now we're married. ask me anything

Look at the top part of his head and tell me it's not photoshopped, it looks so weird.

how hot do I have to be to get gaybros crushing on me, because I feel like they have really high standards.

That's nice and heartwarming user
I hope you'll be happy

Why is it so fascist to not suppress the commodity form immediately and to criticise the USSR for its shitty management of minorities and democratic rights rather how they still had the commodity form ?

Spooked, yes, fash, I really don't see why.
Or are you still salty about Reeesa Luxembourg ?

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Do hetero man find themselves attached to lesbians, or do they only fall for straight women?

I have straight friends from when we were at school together I hang out with weekly to play vidja and I have no attraction to them whatsoever. That's just weird.

inb4 someone tells me they were lying to me, I didn't let any of them know I liked them, not even a sign, they just bring it up randomly in conversation, I also know lesbians I'm not attracted to

Is a completely different question if you actually take the time to think about it

I don't think I would ever fall in love with another guy but I do have sexual fantasies about other guys, both about being fucked/sucking dick and fucking some smooth tight boypussy. Who I find sexually attractive obviously has nothing to do with whether that person is gay or not though, just how straight guys may fall in love with or be attracted to lesbian women.

why

>>>/lgbt/
A thread died for this

hahaha im going to kill myself

:c

you
can still be friends can you

It's going to be daijoubu, user.

are you me?

stop making me feel things you two
it can't be that bad

would give anything to take it back but they started acting differently ever since it happened. They think i was only ever friends with them to try to get at them now, it's painful to have what felt like a genuine lifelong friendship(and we were friends since high school) get retroactively dismissed to meaningless.

I don't think it will, but thank you.

this is my worst nightmare tbh. I guess i'll just never confess my feelings to them.
sorry user

He was probably scared and confused, maybe try to explain the situation clearly, that you can still be friends and he has no reasons to be intimidated by you

when straight people find themselves in such situation, it's pretty normal that they maintain normal relations, "let's be friends" is even kind of a meme phrase, why must it be different with you? Try to make him see it as nothing specially extraordinary

Well I hope everything works out ok.

Sexuality is a spook. I'll take almost anything that will have me.

It was almost a year ago when I confessed, not for any good reason even. A moment of bliss and I felt like I had to say it. It was one of those friendships where we were together practically all day. Talked about everything, shared all our burdens. No reason to keep secrets. At one point he even said I was the most important and special person in his life.

After I said what I did though it just turned into a lot of "i'm busy" "hanging out with other people" "don't enjoy talking about things anymore". To be fair, he did start a new job so maybe that was part of it but anytime we were together it was just coldness. The last time I it up, he said nothing was different and that in the past I was pressuring him to say things he didn't mean or that I just imagined things. So its not just that I fucked up the present, but all those years of memories are nightmares now.

Doesn't matter, he's so clearly over it and moved on forever. I'm an idiot and still in love with him, and missing him simply as my friend. And the latter hurts worse. Only reason I haven't jumped off a bridge is leftism. But even politics has started to seem not enough to go on lately.

Enjoy what you have. I don't know if it'd be different in your situation. I wish I knew someone out there who got a happy ending.

user, maybe tell him all of this, how are you feeling, maybe he will understand if you were so close

If you're really so desperate then what do you have to lose

I'm very sorry for all of this user, I would hug you

I hope your friend still cares about you.
Be kind and patient to yourself, user.

Don't be harsh on these past moments.
It reminds me of when I struggled with social anxiety, I'd also believe that my friends were only hanging out out of pity. You should get that out of your head.

I feel a similar urge to tell my best friend how I feel whenever we're alone but I chicken out of telling him every time.
you could try as the other user suggested broach this with your friend and try to work out anything that's unspoken between you two about it all.
don't lose hope, love is worth suffering all manner of trials and tribulations for. a partner to love is the sweetest thing to have and communism is bleak with one.

Ah dude, ive got a story pretty much the same, but it does have a happy ending. i fell for my best friend years ago when i was a kid. we had been together like 24/7 for years and went on holidays together and got involved in activism for social democrats and all sorts of shit. we were both only kids (15/16ish) but like it felt sort of natural that we got so close. (NI was, and still is i guess, pretty shit about 7 years ago) and while i guess it was pretty obvious to everyone we kept the whole relationship a secret.

We were the absolute cutest, while we still hadn't really talked about it we held each others hands all the time and slept hugging each other (we did some other stuff too eventually i guess :L)

Still we went on holiday for the last time and i dropped the "L" word and FUCK. last time i ever spoke to him. because we had been so close for so long like, it felt like id lost a part of myself. i literally had nobody to talk to about it with as well. I also lost a close family member at the same time and it totally destroyed me. i stopped speaking for like 2 weeks then went on a year long insane drug and booze fueled nihilistic trip, ended up banging a lot of men and women too but i never helped and i even tried to off myself a few times.

But, after some time and bit by bit, i came out of it and got over some minor addictions i had acquired(thats a whole other story :L). then i met a new guy. we have been together about 5, nearly 6 years now and are not nearly as cringeworthley cute, but we are still in love. i honestly couldn't be happier.

i know how you feel man, and like it still hurts today sometimes after losing someone who was so close but it does get better. time and new experiences really does help.

Ive also come to the perspective that while, yes its extremely shitty to have your heart ripped out like that, it either makes or breaks you. for me, i wouldn't be the person i am today without experiencing these things.

i dont advise you start running with gangs and doing all the shit i did though, that just makes it harder in the long run :L

Tbh ive never actually really talked about it with anyone. my current partner (also hot as fuck) got very jealous of my ex. he thought he was really really handsome and knows how insanely close we were.

thought it might be useful to know theres light at th end of the tunnel for someone in a similar situation though im prolly just bein a retard :L

I didn't come to board dedicated to marxist socioeconomic theories for such feels this shit is like a mocking

Sorry, i honestly diddnt mean it to be *ahem* "a mocking" :( i was trying to help

i forgot Holla Forums means we forsake all topics not dedicated to our real friends that never let us down (Pic Related)

seriously though while a pretty off topic thread i feel like i can be of some help through actual life experience here.

Also i spent a year working in the black market for second generation immigrant crime gangs and ended up addicted to a bunch of shit. i also couldn't be in any way visibly engaged with another dude, i actually nearly got my fuckin head kicked in when some (probs loyalists) spotted us holding hands. if thats not for real alienation and how capitalism and sectarianism fucks peoples lives up idn what the fuck is :P

thank you user, your experience does remind me a lot of mine. Even feeling like i lost a part of myself and all of this happening in the background of other shit(in my case i lost my job and had to leave my residence).
It's nice to have even a vague notion of one way things might work out, even if its still ahead of me. For today at least, I don't want to break.

honestly what is life

You ever get down and wanna chat about it with an user with no vested interest who wil listen to whats up, post some shit about the Irish struggle or the orange order and ask for that gay irish rebel or invite me to a discord or something. Good-luck otherwise!

Jesus christ how did i fuck that up so bad and add green arrows all over the place.

Christ im a moron

Dude is there a reason you cant come out (Not in a fucking irritating announcement party liberal way my friends made me try and do either) its not some always feeling proud of oneself thing but once its done you can date with impunity as well as attract men as opposed to always be chasing like what your suggesting with your post. its basically just practical if you wanna bang dudes :L

how'd you get clean?

I actually got very addicted to cocaine and whiskey. (because of what i was doing i had a fairly regular and cheap supply of high purity).

When id kinda dropped off the radar for about six months, some of my friends actually held a bit of an intervention for me. tbh it didn't really work. I felt really bad about worrying them as well, my half cocked suicide attempts had never involved anyone but myself and usually pussying out or passing out from being too wasted to get the job done. but i think somehow they knew it was going on. at lest that i was trying to kill myself with drugs.

I actually got out of it myself. after about a year of total insanity i ended up doing a huge quantity of LSD and DMT for the first time. it made me actually have an outer body experience for what felt like lifetimes(in reality about 20 hours) while there was the sterotypical shit and nightmare fuel visuals and exploring galaxies and shit(seriously never had as intense a trip ever, then or now), at one point everything went calm. i had a hallucination that everyone i knew sat down beside me and told me exactly how they felt and what they thought of me. Finally the boy i had loved came to me and like, it looked somehow like the day id first held his hand on a beach in donegol under the stars(one of the most fucking insanely realistic and consistent visuals i have ever created). He explained how i was no longer the person he knew and he could never love me, nor did he ever and it was time for me to just leave. after that a bunch of insanely introspective stuff happened and i questioned every aspect of my psyche. i basically killed off everything i was. im under no illusion that it was my own mind talking to me, it was an extremely useful experience however.

tbh the way i see it the person i was died that night and i a new consciousness and outlook lay behind my eyes. it was very difficult but i suddenly had willpower to get over the worst of the physical dependency i had built up towards cocaine and finally alcohol.

I can drink nowadays no with no dependancy, but try to keep it to once a week and smoke a little pot now and then, but once every few months i still do a little LSD to cope with bouts of depression.

Id done therapy before, but it didn't really work for me, and i have sort of neurotic internal thoughts that only adds to any negative feelings.

I dont think my experience is in any way to be taken that LSD is the solution to severe depression or addiction.

I think its about finding a way to look extremely deep into ones own mind, and finding a understanding the psychological things that are causing you to overindulge and building up willpower to deal with the physical dependency. sometimes i think that could be support from others, therapy, medicine or ones own personal solution. I find the Egoist perspective on things actually quite useful for building up perspective in a way conducive to coping with addiction or mental illness.

Idn if my story helps, or is even a healthy example. still i can only relay what happened.

Also im sorry if im off topic or ruining the threads, im always worried about getting banned, or being a moron on here :L

I probably sound like a total mentalist, but its been years since that dark as fuck time.

I try to stay very self critical of most aspects of myself nowadays. i even have a lot of criticisms of my approach in them days as well. idn its complicated.

I like to think that i got rid of my personal spooks with some mind juice

Your free to think whatever you want of me. presumably that i got a full dose of autism in liquid form.

Also i just wanted to use that jpg again. its so fucking good XD

I used blotter paper IRL

I confessed to many close friends, only the gay one I'm still friends with. Still a virgin unfortunately, most I've gotten is a single kiss.

My friends all know. frankly i wish i had a friend IRL that was a proper socalist or someone i could discuss Holla Forums without them thinking im super autistic :L

they'd still think you're super autistic, they'd just probably be OK with it

I did a couple of times

Mostly gay guys.

Really, I tend to go into kind of the classical pseudo-pederasty model. Older guys who objectify me like I'm still in my teens tend to get to me quite easily. Were it reversed, I think I'd only pursue legal age emo kids - but those are all gone now, so I'm trapped. But that's what aesthetically attracts me in a member of the same sex, and even the straight emos were gay as fuck back when it was a thing.

On the off chance I'm attracted to a "🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧straight🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧" guy, it's usually because he's a low-standards chaser who thinks I'm really pretty and wants me to chop off my dick. I find that flattering somehow.

Hey seems like theres a lot we could all talk about with gaycommiebro stuff. got a discord set up in case anyone wants to chat or whatever. idgaf. i may be away for a few hours but ill be there later :) discord.gg/dFDUxhX

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Because lesbians are such and such ways if you know what I mean. When I make eye contact with a lesbian it's completely neutral, there is no hint of sexual tension below the surface. The behaviour is completely devoid of any emotional atraction it's like talking to a male acquaintance

I had the idea to try and get over all the negative feelings and addictions(thankfully just cigs and liquor) with LSD but I took a bunch of tabs and didn't get any better. Maybe it's because i had done shrooms in the past, or it was a bad batch. Might try mixing things and seeing if i get better results. I've been trying to do it on my own for a while now and I don't think its going to take.

same. I have no illusions its not my fault for taking the risk, it didn't feel like a risk at the time though. shows how much I know. Wish I could follow your advice to not get mixed up with shady people but its a bit too late for that one too unfortunately.

The extra joke here is that i'm not even sure i'm gay. Until this happened I was sure I was straight and had no problem with women. Life's crazy. Sometimes I fantasize about running to some mountain away from problems and just wait to die.

I'm rambling because i've been drinking but yeah, again thanks for some perspective. I've no family or friends. and can't exactly trust acquaintances with this, so at least i got to talk to someone about it.

You know we love you user

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That sucks, Im sorry your going through such a shit time. And meh, can take people some time to work out what makes them tick, its not like your the only one!

ive still got that discord open if you ever want to talk about shit.
im not in the US so i may not respond till some weird time for you. still even so, talking to an user can be helpful discord.gg/RNW79K :L

Does anyone discuss politics here anymore?

LEARN2SAGE then dude. by posting your just keeping this thread up. im just replying to someone without bumping.

you just undermined yourself by no saging.

Make a politics thread instead.

also theres just two of us but whoever wants to join and talk random shit or srs stuff its all good.

taking it one day at a time. work keeps me busy most of the day and i don't usually feel comfortable in chatrooms so I don't think you'll see me around unfortunately.

Thats cool. you do what you need too.

Just remember this thread, you can get past this shitty point in your life, some of us have been there and its possible. good-luck user.