Avoiding social contact while studying hard subject at university like engineering or science is easy peasy lemon squeezy.
And do what? Bother them? Ogle them? What to do? Why go out of your way to disturb someone else? Start talking and hear yourself say "Y-you too" and having pasta with sauce and meatballs come out of your pockets?
Maybe some other guys can get in situations where their presence may be welcome by the woman they are talking to. Maybe other guys are charismatic enough to get away with that kind of thing. But when you have a charisma of a wet sponge, then tough luck.
But those guys are not burdened by insecurity, not burdened by depression, fatigue, mental fog, and most importantly they have social skills. When you have those, no wonder no woman would want to spend a minute of her time with such mentally unhealthy person.
In self help articles, the healthy sense of self worth is repeated over and over, talks about healthy self esteem, about confidence.
But when you believe that you are a worthless piece of human trash, when you cannot imagine anyone wanting to spend time with you, and when someone actually does you just humour them somehow, presenting yourself as just a functioning person, never mentioning the part of being broken inside. And to top it all, an unhealthy level of masturbation mostly used to alleviate negative emotions. What woman would want a pathetic wanker who squeezes himself with a kung-fu grip.
And then you just soldier on, with studies and with work, never actually enjoying life and only surviving. Surviving because you don't want to sadden your parents with suicide. And then with the self improvement, things like learning languages and improving existing languages you know. What good is it to be able to talk to more people when you have no clue why would anyone talk to you, especially when they already have other people to talk to in their social circles.
This thread is shitty though so an extra personal log won't hurt.
