What I've found to be helpful is to break down the tasks I want to accomplish into numerous bite sized pieces, preferably something that can be done in less than half an hour.
I've heard this advice many times. Seems very good. Planning to incorporate that, planning that since months…
I'm tired and hard to force myself to even do a list of projects and tasks and subtasks.
First off, you should always be productive before you have free time. Free time tends to be very hard to end, so you can dodge that by not having to worry about ending it. Start off by trying to get one or two bites of work done each day before you have your free time.
Yeah but who's gonna force me into doing that? What if I just wake up and procrastinate like always? Who will stop that? For sure not me. I don't know how, I do not have control over my actions. I just do where I am drifted at
Modifinal is a mostly safe stimulant with no long term side effects,
Tried, seemed only help in physical energy, not in mental energy and doing important tasks. But my testing wasn't long, need to give it one more try
but it's technically kinda illegal (but kinda not) so don't get caught with it.
I don't care I even tried illegal drugs for my problems but haven't found a single useful thing. If police try to stop me I will stop them with bullets
In terms of your big notebook, you can probably figure out what's good an what's not in there by asking yourself "Can I do something with this?" and then "Is it feasible to do something with this?" Remember it's okay to put an idea/project/goal on hold as long as you're doing other things.
But I have several thousands lines and thoughts there, it takes too much time and effort to browse that texts and decide what should do with it
Doing too many things at once leads to all of them being done poorly.
I don't do important tasks at all. Get stuck on simple and not important tasks
Another bro is recommending some sort of calming/mindfulness meditation. You seem to think it's impossible for you to do, but it's not. It's hard, but if you could do it it would be extremely helpful in achieving your goals.
I am not that type of person and I think it's impossible for me to calm and meditate. And what would it give me? Lose time?
Say there's a challenge with a prize of ten thousand dollars. To win it, you have to spend ten minutes plugged into the pain machine, which causes extreme pain and discomfort. You can make the pain stop at any time, but you only get the prize if you last ten minutes. You want the money of course. Will is the ability to put up with the pain for long enough to get it.
I have some "resisting will" but not "initiative will". I can easily stop myself from buying jewish unhealthy foods. But there is no way of forcing myself into expending energy and effort on anything that's not fun and doesn't give instant gratification
You have plenty of want right now with all your projects, now you need will to complete them. Will can be trained.
If you want to post an email I could send you a link to a chat for people who are interested in self improvement and achieving goals.
my email is monster_danger .AT. mail2tor .DOT. com
I don't know if will visit chat or not.