for a while now i have had extreme paranoia about everyone around me, i thought my entire family hated me and were trying to humiliate me at every moment, i trusted no one at school cause i thought they were faking friendliness so the could harass me (i think thats because i was sexually assaulted in mid school and the whole class laughed while it happened), and for awhile i would watch what i was thinking cause i thought some people could read my mind ( like i would think of something private and i would cache some kid looking at me and i would internally freak out and try to think of something else) and on top of all that i am getting some bad insomnia and starting to fucking here people calling my name even when im all alone. i also have hallucinations like fucking seeing cats or dogs scurried by real fast in my house even tho i don't have pets, or ill see fuckin spiders on my armrest or on the pillow next to me and they disappear when i get up. i feel like im going insane and i don't know what to do, i havn't told anyone yet because its not causing problems but i don't know what to do when it does start causing problems.
Think im going crazy
It's all true.
hey, you should get some peyote or shrooms or something and see what happens
GTFO redit spacing
holly fuckin shit
Holy fuck, you're me, from the past!
Everything is going to turn out okay. I guess. You'll clear up eventually, but then the hallucinations will come back with a vengeance, except it's a little more fun this time. Then they'll clear up again.
Everyone actually likes you for some reason, and the people who joke about wanting to be your friends, actually mean it, but if you give them the cold shoulder enough times, they'll get the impression that you don't like them, because they're emotionally aware, and not cripplingly autistic.
Speaking of crippling autism: all your friends in the future have it.
its not causing problems
Right. Paranoia, neurosis, insomnia, and hallucinations are not problems.
Dude, if those are not problems I don't know what problems are. Get help now. Run, don't walk, to the nearest hospital and sign yourself in. Don't wait for morning, don't even post a reply to this, just go!
i appreciate you concern but what i meant by problems is there is nothing debilitating quit yet, what i want to know is what to do when if or when it gets to the point i can no longer function. i assumed mental hospital but i don't know how much that costs and i don't want to get to the point where i need medication to somewhat function. i just feel like i'm losing my mind and i want to stop it before i freak out and run around screaming and braking shit they're out to get me
shroooooooooooms take the psychedelics maaaaaaaaaaan you can't go wrong
sexually assaulted while class laughs
Well, I'm thinking one of two things. Either:
1. You went to school in Africa
2. Your "sexual assault" is one of those made-up Millennial bullshit things where someone just touched your ass and you need to grow up and get over it
i want to do that but i am straight edge and a follower of jesus you can't get me with temptation you demon
what happened was i got pushed on the ground into a fuckin corrner while some other boys rubbed their bare icals in my face and they said to me "suck me off like the fag you are" and the whole time the class laughed at me cause i was ans still am a fucking loser
Hmm…. uhh…. Yup…. It's schitzophrenia.
Time to get medicated and also neetbux may possibly be in your future. How old are you OP?
Listen here, nigger.
Part of schitzophrenia is a loss of self-awareness.
Right now you obviously have some lucidity left that allows you to recognize your own symptoms. If you don't get help, you will lose this ability altogether.
At that point, it won't even occur to you that you are ill, or that the hallucinations aren't real, or that you need help. It could take years for someone else to figure out you are suffering from psychosis and when they do you will be institutionalized.
It is much better to seek help now, while you are able to realize you need it.
As for not needing medication to function, I hate to tell you this, but schitzophrenia is incurable, and will not go away once it begins. You will need medication for the rest of your life, like it or not.
A schitzophrenic is constantly suffering from psychosis. Medication minimizes the symptoms. Psychosis is not an on-or-off state, rather it has varying, changeable degrees of severity. The longer you go without medication and support, the worse it will get. Once you are on the medication, if you quit taking it, the psychosis will come back and gradually worsen again.
t. Someone with one schitzo friend and another schitzoaffective friend who have both been institutionalized many times
Listen to this dude, OP. This can only get worse from here. You can either start treating this shit now and lead a quasi-normal life or be institutionalized forever against your will.
I speak from experience, it's not schizophrenia.
Schizophrenics get tactile and auditory hallucinations and delusions. OP doesn't appear to be delusional, and is having _visual_ hallucinations.
I have similar symptoms when my anxiety gets out of control. He just needs to 1) get sleep, 2) figure out what is making him anxious, 3) stop being a little bitch.
Thinking people can read your thoughts is a delusion. He is also having other paranoid delusions about his family being out to humiliate him.
Schitzos DO get visual hallucinations. OP is also having auditory hallucinations - as he already said, he hears people calling his name.
In a similar situation, OP. I have this unshakable feeling that I did something humiliating in class but can't remember what happened exactly. So far, I've received middle fingers and bad looks but that might just be college kids in general. I literally cannot stop thinking about it. It keeps me up at night and if it weren't for the fact that I don't care to speak to any of them I'd probably have either left or killed myself. Maybe the answer is to just give less of a fuck. Convincing myself that it wouldn't be worth my time to initiate conversation with them in the first place has done much to help me become comfortable with my solitude.
Torrent a full season of Ray Mear's Bushcraft then disable your internet connection. Then spend the next week or two watching one episode a day followed by going out and performing what you've learned that day in a real forest (no matter how humble a forest). Go to bed soon after sunset every night then get up right after sunrise, no matter how much you've slept. Do not view pornography or use drugs of any kind during this period. Spend any extra time doing chores, reading and a simple bodyweight exercise program plus biking or running. Do favours for people who you think need help in any way to fill more time.
Of course you won't heed my advice.
I always was a faggot.
One time, when I had this large rolled up newpaper showed waaaay up inside my clenching asshole, my mother smiled at me, as we shared our Xmas family dinner together.
where someone just touched your ass and you need to grow up and get over it
all-boys school for the win!