Who here /wants to turn back time/

Who here /wants to turn back time/?

I'm 19, gonna turn 20 in May, and looking back on my life I see so many different opportunities I had to basically become chad or at least seem like him to the normies, and how I blew every single one of them

I wish I could go back and do it again, I wish I could even just go back as recently as freshmen year of highschool knowing what I know now, I would have started lifting immediately, signed up for a bunch of sports but most importantly football, and I would have done everything possible to charm all the guys and girls but especially the girls


Instead I was a shut in nerd near-NEET until I started college, and towards the end of the crazyness I was obese


It hurts to think about

I wasted 18 years

I could have been the captain of a football team, fucking girls left and right, getting head under bleachers, walking into any parties I wanted, all the while still knowing normies were full of shit, and I could have done it at 16 or something

I wasted 18 years

I mean I'm getting my shit together now, I haven't been fat since May, I've been to so many parties I've lost count, made out with so many girls at them I've lost count, gotten head a couple times, smoke pot with friends, done shots, came THIS close to having a girlfriend, now I've got 2 girls who wanna hang out with me, a third who might be down, a 4th who might wanna hook up when she comes back to town near christmas, and a 5th who may want to become a friend with benefits if I didn't seem to "muh thirsty" or whatever
But it's taken too damn long and too much fucking effort to get to this point
I could have had so much fun, could have had a blast
Instead growing up was shit and I constantly feel like I'm chasing ghosts or images or shadows or something of what everyone else already got/has and has had for as long as they can remember

Sometimes I think about it but time travel can't fix my brain so it'd be pointless.

Take it from a 33yo, it really doesn't matter. I've fucked ~20 girls (some hideous and some really hot) and it makes absolutely no difference. I'm miserable. Life sucks. It doesn't get better. End it.

If you enjoyed that time you spent as a shut-in NEET then I don't see the problem

Read Dostoevsky and accept the despair of life.

It's pointless. I would have had those things, if I were not satisfied to accept less. At the same time, if I were not satisfied to accept less, I would have felt the same way I am feeling now.

Maybe some feelings get dulled as people grow older, but those same feelings are also what hold us back in our youth. I would be more worried if I felt like my youth wasn't wasted.

I'm 28 and I want to go back and be 19 again.
What does that tell you OP?

Im 21 and no not really, i was friends with a very famous jock who now has a kid with a woman who he barely speaks to anymore. Nearly all the others had brains of dirt and are now struggling to get a good job and education, but hey there's drugs women and tons of parties before you know it there in the ghetto.

The successful jocks earned every last bit of there perfect mind and body but there rare, your 20s is much more optimal to become that person don't focus on the past focus on the present. Highschool was and always will be a shitshow and thats coming from a chad dating a highschool girl trust me be glad your not in it anymore.

I'm turning 20 in October

It would be nice to turn back and change things, but Iwouldn't do it anyways. This is how life works, it's determination and there is no possibility or need to change it.

However I've pretty much given up at this point.
I realised This
Now reading Crime and Punishment but takes me a long time because of lacking motivation for anything

so we would have to squeeze shit back in a hole?

Nothing would have changed OP. Smart people wish they went back and played sports, dumb jocks wish they went back and got smart. Smart chats wish they were dead. Life sucks. It doesn't get better. Accept it.

I never want to go through this shit ever again. How about fast forward instead?

You don't fucking belong here reddit.

My descent into degeneracy and NEETness started some time in middle school, no, late primary school. Must have been late 90s or early 2000s. We just got a brand new computer and that was when I really discovered the internet and what it had to offer for the first time. It started innocent enough; I would, using Netscape, go to Nintendo websites and discuss tips, cheats, lore, that kind of stuff. I figured out pretty quickly that I didn't need to tell people exactly who I was. I know now that there must have been that type of people before me, but at the time I thought I was hot shit; the OG Anonymous. I could say anything, be whoever I wanted to be. Even if IRL I was the quiet, shy, but reasonably well-liked class clown, here I could be a rad, bad-ass ladies man (though I'm sure I'd cringe if I read now what I wrote back then). Of course, anonymity and lack of accountability can change a man, and unless you're a costumed vigilante from the comics, it's usually for the worse. I began to troll people. I did stupid shit, like spamming rude obscenities, as well as more complex trolling. Pretending to be retarded, sockpuppeting, you name it, anything to arouse annoyance or anger and maybe start a flame war. And I was damn good at what I did, if I may say so myself. I loved being a dick online. A little too much, though, as trolling rapidly began to consume my life. I became withdrawn, keeping my real life interactions to a minimum and preferring to chat and troll with my e-bros. I'd stay home "sick" from school and neglect my studies in favor of spending time online. I grew distant from even my immediate family in the same household. Being young and stupid, I figured "it's fine, I'll be fine; I have my online friends." One or two years of this later, I was introduced to Halfchan. It was a time of YLYL threads (when the content was less stale, of course, to me at least) and raids. I could hardly ever wait for the next big raid, and I would spend my time in between trolling on a smaller scale. It was a absolute fucking blast while it lasted. Yep, while it lasted. The good years went by and reality showed its' ugly face. I was failing school. I had no social skills, no friends. My few friends online were leaving to actually make something of themselves and I saw them less and less. I wouldn't dare meet them in real life lest they see me for who I really am, not that I even knew who I was since I was constantly acting like someone else. I had no marketable skills; yeah, I'm really sure I could be a fucking professional edgelord. Then the depression started. I don't think I really realized it back then, why I was sad or maybe even that I was sad, but it got worse and worse. I guess I could hide my depression pretty easily by playing vidya and trolling, channeling it into anger and unleashing it on other people. Things got noticeably bad a few years back when my grandmother died. It hit me hard. I'm not even sure why. We weren't that close. But I couldn't even enjoy the aforementioned things that I used to. My parents would lightly push me to go to college or get a job, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I wish I could say that I got over it, or that I'm beginning to heal, or even that I haven't gotten much worse since but the truth is I've become a fat NEET leech. I do nothing all day but watch Youtube, movies, porn, play shitty hentai games and fap to trap threads until my next NEETbux check comes and I can spend it on a sweet distraction. If I could turn back time, I'd study harder, keep in touch with my real friends and family, get a hobby, learn an enjoyable trade and KEEP OFF OF THE INTERNET. In this timeline? I've started to think about killing myself.

So start now. Don't let 40 year-old you say the same thing. High school isn't the glorious coming-of-age fuckfest the media makes it seem like. Some people's prime is in highschool, for others (if not most) it isn't. Grab life by the balls NOW my user friend

Flat-chested women bang like a dunny door in a windstorm, believe me!

We'd been friends for ages, and we kinda friend-zoned each other for about 3 years. One night, we just kinda went "fuck it", and hit the sack together. It was one of the most erotic sexual times of my entire life! She was an absolute demon in bed! She was a country girl - growing up on a farm must have give her 'ideas'! No-one would ever know just looking at her - she was a "Plain Jane" in many ways, but she was gorgeous as well (in my eyes). Twas like she was trying to outdo herself to blow away the stereotype of 'plain-looking' flat-chested girls… I lost count how many times I creamed her muffin that night… she was a demon… she bit, scratched, howled… I'm getting horny at the mere memory!

The best part is - 20 years later, we are still really good friends! Yes, amazingly, our friendship survived the 'one-off fuckfest' experience!

Another added bonus was - no-one ever found out about it! None of our friends were none the wiser - even her housemate, whom we were both good friends with! If only she knew - the older housemate would have killed me! I had to wear high-necked skivvies for a fortnight afterwards, just to hide the bite and scratch marks around my neck!

I always dreamed that *I* would 'break' my flat-chested friend in the cot…. but, in reality - it was the other way round!

We still joke about it, all these years later.

True story. Fuck you if you don't believe it.

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Bud, you're only 20. I was like you (kinda) when I was 20 - worried about the future, worried about the past. At some point I just started living, man. Don't count time as a destination or think, fuck! I gotta do it all now… The best things come naturally, if it's meant to be - it will be. Hard work gets you places, and hard work doesn't give a shit about the past - why? Because it's the past!! Your 20, assuming you don't get hit by a truck or Allah Snackbar'd while at the gym or shopping, you've got 20 years till you really have to start panicking.

me too, all I did was play videogames. Now I'm 28 and more neet than ever

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